Hurtin

/|Why let go|\

It started to become an habit, a habit that felt good. It made me feel that I was getting rid of all of my pain when I was actually just pilling it all up.
Storing it all up for it to be opened later

I stopped eating, I would eat and force myself to throw up.. I was slowly changing. My body has become so weak and fragile my bones were slowly becoming visible.
My mom was so worried that she decided to take me to the doctors and they had appointed me to the clinic where they manage disorders.

They had told my mom that I was slowly going to die if I don't take my food... hearing that had made me become adamant on not eating. And I refused to eat

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"Miya you need to eat your food look at you, your becoming so weak... my baby you're causing me pain, Miya look at me please .. look at me come on darling eat" said my mom while trying to get my attention
I didn't respond I tried to ignore my mom and not look at her eyes... I didn't want to eat. I didn't want to survive and become what I was before

"MIYA look at me" said my mom once again
NO, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AGGGGGGHHHHHH, GO!!!" I said while grabbing my moms arm and kicking her out of my room and closing the door on her face"

I began to cry and started to yell
"Why weren't you ever accepting mom you never accepted me  then and your not accepting me now" I cried out
"Honey this is killing you " said my mom at other side of the door
"Then let it mom, maybe I would be more happier"I replied
"MIYA DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID" said my mom while banging the door.
" I won't mom it's not the right time yet" I replied

The doctor has advised my mom to get me back into school around people. I hadn't been school in 6months.
And today was the day.

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Walking  into the school corridors everyone was staring at me.
"Omdzz look at her"
"She was better fat"
"Ewww she so boney"
Said all these voices while looking at me.

"MIYA"
"Yoongi" I was so shocked to see him

Yoongi P.O.V
There she was all fragile and weak staring at me. What had she done to herself I thought to myself.
Where was the old Miya gone
Looking at her made me want to go and hug her but she looked at me in a way trying to tell me that this would be the last time.
I grabbed her arm but all I could feel was bones so I let go.

Yoongi grabbed my arm but immediately let go maybe he felt what everyone felt.
I just walked right passed him without saying anything else.
Yoongi out of all people I thought to myself.

"Hello Miya great to see you back" said Mrs Jones
"I hope you will produce some amazing work for me, haven't marked any in a long time " said Mrs Jones while looking into my face hoping that made me feel better
It didn't
"Mrs she's too fragile for that" said a voice behind me
"Collins detention after school" Replied Mrs Jones straight away before anyone could add towards that.