i'm an idiot , i stayed with seonghwa for awhile and i finally escaped trying to find san—instead i found yunho and mingi. "g-guys where is san?" i asked and they looked at me emotionless.
"do you even care?" yunho said "i do , he's my bestfriend for fucks sake" i snapped, why wouldn't they tell me? "well your one hell of a good bestfriend" mingi scoffed brushing her shoulder on mine.
"yunho" i said and he just rolled his eyes walking away. i bit my lip trying to stop the tears from coming out, what did i do?
i closed my eyes , opening them again and i just grabbed my things and left. i ran towards san home and once i reached i just started to yell his name.
"SAN!"
"CHOI SAN!"
"I WILL KNOCK DOWN YOUR DOOR"
the door opened and san older sister glared at me, "lord, jimin can you be louder?" she snapped and i bowed apologizing. "s-san is he there?" i asked and she nodded. "he doesn't want to see you" she said and i felt my chest pang a bit.
"w-what?" i said and she sighed "i'm sorry." she said "c-can you tell him to talk to me, p-please" the tears went down my cheek. "i'm sorry jimin, but you're really pathetic." she said and my chest hurt even more. she's always been rude.
"you used him, and now you want him back. you're so selfish" she kept going, all the mean words jimin heard all her years of living came to her again. jimin fell to the ground crying.
the only one who helped her was san, but now he was gone. san older sister slammed the door shut as i continued to cry in front of the door. i am everything she said: selfish, pathetic, stupid, ugly, worthless, flawed, boring, coward, everything bad.
i tightened my hands and i felt someone pick me up—i looked up and saw hongjoong. i softly hit his chest "d-don't help me" i cried and he rubbed my back softly placing me inside his car. i hurried trying to wipe my tears as he got in the drivers seat " d-don't look at me" i said and hongjoong hugged me.
i started to cry once again, everything came out—even my little boogers. "don't cry, please don't cry" hongjoong rubbed my back. hongjoong lifted my face up wiping my tears "do you want to rant?" hongjoong asked i stared at him—his expression was soft, as if he was truly worried.
"you would tell everyone, and use it against me" i said sniffing and he sighed "let's forget about school drama and focus on now okay?" hongjoong smiled softly and i nodding explaining everything.
at the end i was crying again. "jimin, don't tell me you're so clueless" hongjoong said and i looked at him pouting "w-what?" i asked. "san—he likes you" hongjoong said and i tilted my head.
"t-that's impossible, we've been bestfriends for so long" i said and he hummed "and you never noticed him falling for you. his heart must be broken right now" hongjoong laid back on his chair sighing.
"seems like too many guys like you jim-in" hongjoong voice cracked and i looked at him. "no one truly does" i said and hongjoong looked at me. "i truly do, y-your the only girl who doesn't treat me like a baby. you don't treat me the way everybody else does" hongjoong said "so i treat you like trash?" i giggled a bit and he smiled "i guess you can say that" he smiled.
"are you really going on that date with seonghwa?" hongjoong asked, i could see the pain in his eyes. "i-i don't know" i said and he looked away "seonghwa acts so fast, plus he knows his way with words" hongjoong said and i looked out the window.
"do you think san will talk to me?" i asked and hongjoong cupped my hand "he'll come around, clearly he cares about you dearly." hongjoong said. i smiled at him "maybe you're not such an asshole" i said and he smiled "good" he said and i laid back.
"thanks for this, i really needed it. needed someone. usually san is always there, maybe i did take advantage of him. n-now i have no one." i said a tear coming down, gosh i'm such a cry baby.
"hey-hey, you have me" hongjoong smiled brightly and i smiled a little back. "i think your ego will get ahead of you." i said and he pouted "i promise it won't, plus i'll help san talk to you" hongjoong said and i looked at him wearily.
"how do you plan to do that?" i asked "hm, i'll tell you if you don't go on that date with seonghwa" hongjoong smiled. i sighed "give me a good reason why i shouldn't go" i said and hongjoong pouted "w-well seonghwa is a player and i doubt he actually likes you" he said and i chuckled "wow thanks, he's your friend though. i bet you two are really alike" i glared at him before exiting the car.
hongjoong got out the car as well "jimin i didn't mean it like that, come on!" he said and i glared at him. "i thought you were being nice for once, but ends up you'll always be a dick hongjoong. i don't need your help—and i'm going on that date" i said before walking away.
