My Ex the Teacher ~ a Yoongi FF

×Chapter 10×

Y/N Pov.

~ 8 Months later ~

My heart felt heavy today. Its exactly 8 Months since Yoongi committed suicide and I'm still hoping this is all a sick joke. I'm seeing a therapist every week and even he is rateless what to do about the fact that I can't come over the situation. Tae has helped me a lot and stayed by my side. He was the one calming me down when I woke up screaming from a nightmares. He was the one comforting me when I just sat there crying because the emotions overwhelmed me once again. He was the one making me laugh when no one else couldn't. I'm so thankful to have him in my life.

Tae confessed to me yesterday because he didn't want to continue acting like he just felt friendship. Honestly I don't know what I should feel about it. I know I have to go on and will never be together with Yoongi but right now I'm not sure what to do. There's something towards Tae. I can feel it but it will take time to set it free.

"Y/N? Should we go now?", Tae asked as he put a hand on my shoulder. I slowly nodded. Today Tae and I wanted to go to the place where they found Yoongis Body. We both aren't sure if this would be that of an great idea but maybe it's going to help me finish with this situation. I grabbed the flowers from the table. I wanted to set them at the place for him.

Tae and I started walking in silence for a while until he broke it: "How are you feeling right now?". "I'm not sure. Something between sad and about to burst in tears because I'm afraid how I will react seeing that place..", my voice got silent at the end. Tae put his arm around me bringing mr close to him as we stopped walking. "Y/N you're strong. Very strong. You've been through a lot the last 8 months and even before it wasn't easy. I know it's a sad and also weird situation being at that place but I know you will be strong and finally able to go on. I will be right here waiting for you and I promise I will never leave your side until you tell me to", he said as he wiped away a tear rolling down my cheek, softly smiling at me. "Thank you Tae. I don't know what I would've done without you. You're truly amazing. I appreciate you so much".

"Are you ready?",he asked and I nodded. "You have to go to left. I will wait here and leave you some privacy so you can say goodbye". Again I nooded not able to get a word over my lips. Tae lift my chin up and left a quick peck on my lips, making my heart slightly rase. I gave him a small smile and then made my way to the left.

I layed the flowers under a tree slowly looking around. There were lots of bushes and trees. I sighed, sat down and embraced my legs with my arms. "Oh Yoongi. I hope you hear me. I love you. I always will even if Tae might be having a place in my heart too. But I know you wouldn't be against it and just want me to be happy. I hope you're fine now. I wished I could have said goodbye and kiss you one last time", tears started to stream over my cheeks, "Why did you do this? It's so hard being here at this place and know you took your last thought, your last breath and your last heartbeat here. Thinking about how it felt for you. If you thought about me and if you regretted your choice. There are so many questions which never will be answered. But I know I can't think about them forever. I have to move on and be strong for you. That's why I'm leaving these thoughts here. Here at the place you left, hoping they leave me. This is my last sentence to you Yoongi. I love you my little cat".

I cried really bad as I started to ran back to Taehyung. He immediately put his arms around me and held me close to his body. "It's okay. Shhh", he continued whispering those word in my ear. I slowly calmed down and Tae wiped my tears away. He placed a kiss at my forehead and then one on my lips. It was short but that was what I needed. I took a deep breath and we both walked home.