Don't cut/die/jump - Laughing Jack x Jeff the Killer

Chapter 2 : Flashbacks (You promised.)

JTK'S POV

(Timeskip)

LJ was now on a mission, while I was downstairs seeing my ex kissing EJ. My heart was shattered in little glass pieces, that I try to pick up but fail. I just felt so loved by him, but now, he broke his promise. He broke his promise..

(Flashback)

Jeff was in his room, crying slightly. He remembered when he killed his brother, blaming himself on it even though Liu survived and was now in the mansion. 

BEN, on the other side, was hearing some tiny sobs coming from the corner of Jeff's room.  He knocked on it slightly, wanting it to be answered. "W-what d-d-d-do y-you w-want?!" Jeff said, choking on a sob.

"I just.. want to come in." BEN says, while Jeff thinks of letting him inside or not. "Whatever, j-just c-c-come in-in!" He says, while BEN slowly twisted the door knob to enter. He entered in there, looking at Jeff who was crying.

"H-hey.. Don't cry.." BEN says, kneeling down to hug Jeff. Jeff hesitantly hugged back, sobbing on his shoulder, while on the other side, BEN didn't care that his sweater(?) was getting soaked/wet. 

"D-Don't l-l-leave m-me..." Jeff says, audible enough. BEN smiles, nodding. "I promise.."

(End of Flashback)

Those words in Jeff's head ringed. "I promise.." 

"I promise."

"You liar!" I mumble, my body starting to shake. I couldn't stop it, weird. I then notice, that BEN and EJ left. "Sluts.." I growled under my breath, looking down. I got up, going to my room and slam the door shut. My anger went down, sadness starting to fill my body but I slap myself. 

"Get over this, Jeff! Be strong!" I say to myself, sighing and sitting down on my bed. I can't, I just miss BEN, I miss everything about him. My trust issues have now grew, which made me trust people less.

That's when I thought. "What about if I learn myself to be my old self, cold and heartless?" I thought, while smiling fakely at the thought. "That's what I'll do.." I say, starting to practice on being cold and heartless again.

I was slightly getting a bit better, but that didn't stop me from cutting. I grab my rusty knife, going to my bathroom and struggled to get the old, creamed blood off the knife. (god that didn't make sense) I somehow managed to get some off, but, there was still a bit more. Eh, it'll do. I roll up my sleeves, to reveal new scars from yesterday, god.

I started to dig the knife in my wrist, blood drawing. I started to make more cuts while sighing, I deserve this. I wasn't good enough for BEN, that's why he left me and went for EJ. EJ is better, he knows how to cook, I can too but he can do more better things than me.

What's the point of even cutting when I can just drown myself or grab a knife to stab myself? It'll be too easy, I just can't do this anymore. I made some new cuts, washing the knife and slowly wipe the blood off my cuts so my hoodie doesn't get soaked.

I hide the knife, leaving the bathroom and heard the front door open, LJ. I go downstairs, seeing LJ. He seems to notice me, while smiling and waving at me. Gosh, I wish I can be LJ, he's perfect. That smile, those eyes, everything is perfect. While I'm just a psychopath, carved out smile just for my mom, because she said to always 'Smile'.

While I have a broken one, I force myself to smile, which everyone seems to buy it. Even my ex, I always forced a smile next to him. I blush a bit, when LJ approached me. "Wanna hangout, later, at 6 PM?" He asked, holding out his hand so I can shake it, meaning I accept.

I groan a bit, starting to think. "I mean, sure?" I thought, slowly reaching out my hand to shake it. He smiles. "Great! See you at the river in the forest/woods!" He cheers, leaving happily. I wish I can be so happy like him, he's perfect!!!

I run to my room, sitting down. "When will I be perfect? I'm fat, ugly, I force broken smiles and try my hardest to be happy! It's useless, because my boyfriend left me, I mean, I broke up with him because he cheated, obviously!"  I thought, starting to cry a bit. "When will I be happy?.."

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