⭐ 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐊𝐄 ⭐ ( discontinued)

phases - mikey

dear miah,

words can't explain how terrified i've been to write you this, but i feel like it can't hurt, can it? well, we'll see. I just want you to know how i completely feel. the last thing i want is to come across your mind as needy and desperate. but that's not the case this is just my heart speaking.

i guess I've decided to write this because lately, i miss you so much it hurts. i miss looking forward to talking to you and seeing you everyday. i miss when we would just talk on the phone for hours. when you'd not say a word and tell me you love listening to the sound of my voice. i miss when i would go to look at you, but you were already looking at me first. some days i miss you so much i go through all the messages you wrote me, and it makes me smile, but then i wake up in the morning realize you're not here anymore, and i get sad again. to hear i was your world, always made me feel special. you were never ashamed of me and you would remind me you loved me everyday.

i've tried to convince myself i don't want you anymore. but i just can't let go. i don't want to see you move on, but i'm not doing much about it either.

i could tell you how much i've missed you for days and weeks , but i feel like it won't make a difference.

you are my angel in human flesh. you're too much for me, yet i can't get enough. i simply cannot put into words how i feel about you when i see you, hear you! my heart breaks just to be around you. i take in the way you move, the way you talk, whenever you are around although it may only be for brief moment, it's enough to make my day.

every day and night i thank god that you came into my life and i try to tell you how i feel, because what i feel for you exists inside my heart.

i tend to think of that wonderful evening when we first met-the first time i saw you – the first time we spoke to each other – the first time we touched – the first time we danced. our first kiss that you gave me on your couch after i asked you to be my girlfriend by telling you that fairytale story on your couch. it seems just like yesterday to me because i have always kept such precious memories constantly alive in the pages of my mind.

 every second we've been apart, every word, action and thought that has ever been spoken or passed, has traveled thru the depths of my mind and it makes me a better person everyday. i guess what i'm trying to say is that, look its not a need or necessity to have you back, but its a choice instead to want to be with you again.

and my mind and heart choose to be with you – so look there's a difference between needing you back and choosing to want to be with you. the purpose of this letter is to let you acknowledge that i'm not asking for you to take me back right now, i don't want to be selfish and pressure you to be back with me all over again. NO i don't want that! all i'm trying to say and gain from this letter is for a little sign of hope that one day this storm will calm down and it will be sunny again between you and me again. because the way i feel about you is a really rare type of love.

but like i was trying to say this whole letter, i love you and ill wait for you until the end of time. just know that i'm always here for you and once again i love you.

love, mikey

author's note.

um, first of all, phases is a big ass bop. like excuse me for my profanity but jeezus, edwin snapped as usual and AUSTIN ACTUALLY HAD SOME TYPE OF LINE, IM SHHHOOOOOKKKKK. and btw, i put a random name there cause i was lost.but anyways i have english lab homework sooooo catch you later fams.

briana:)