You feel close
I can see your words in front of me
But you're not really there
You're miles away
And I mean that literally
You're a face on a screen
That only leaves me feeling empty
I message you when I'm bored
Neither of us is doing much
Yet we make no effort to meet up
Still we talk for hours
Far away
And yet right there
I make no effort to call you
These messages feel safe
Although they leave me empty
I'd like to hear your voice
But the thought scares me a little
When was the last time I heard that sound?
All I know is the messages I send
And the ones I receive
Barren they may be
They've become habit
My apprehensive nature only worsens
I can't remember how to talk
But I move my fingers rapidly
I can sit at home
And you can sit at home
We can talk
To each other
But not with
And when I am with you
I'm left unsatisfied
Unable to communicate
The words are slowly dying
I seek out connections
Where there is no presence
I long to feel alive
Loved, close
But I search where I will never find
Satisfaction is unattainable
I'm left more lonely
Than before I signed on
Before I messaged
It's right in front of me
Right there
And yet so far
It's right in front of me
Right there
And yet it never really was
