I wake up, still feeling lightheaded. But, I go back into that state of emptiness. I feel dead again.
Checking my alarm clock, I see that it's 12:00 PM.
"I slept for a long time, didn't I?" I ask myself.
I slept for quite some time, I don't even know how that happened. It felt, good though? What is this feeling? Am I really getting emotions back? I can't believe it. How is this even possible?
I feel so lost. I wish my girlfriend never broke up with me. She could help fix me, right?
No, she couldn't. Quitting my job sounds better. Way better. That's what started this whole mess.
"Quit, my, job?" I ask myself with a small, weak voice.
I can't believe I'm thinking of that. How can I? What's happening to me? If I quit my job, I don't know what'll happen next. Though, quitting would give me a chance to find my interests.
I have no clue what my life is anymore. All I do is work. I'm not sure what I enjoy anymore. I can't feel emotions anymore, so how can I have hobbies?
But, am I really that emotionless? What am I feeling right now? Is it sadness?
"What is happening to my life?" I question myself, a tear dripping down my face.
Oh great, I'm crying again. I can't believe myself. I truly can't.
"How can I even describe my life?" I think out loud.
There are no words. No words to describe my misery. No words to explain my dilemma.
My tears start falling more quickly down my face. That lightheaded feeling coming back to me.
I collapse on my bed again.
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Tokyo
FanfikceInspiration from RM's song "Tokyo" on his Mono m̶i̶x̶t̶a̶p̶e̶ playlist. Souta is a South Korean male living in Japan. His family was forced to move to Japan, and forced to change their names. As a result of this, Souta became a very quiet man. He n...
