i want you back - a taegguk story

4

Jungkook POV

"I never want to see you again, Jeon Jungkook."

"How can you just say that? After 3 years of being in a relationship? You lied to me from the beginning! "

"What just got into you? I hate you jungkook! "
————————

"Jungkook? get up! ", my mother shouted in my ear.
"You had another nightmare, are you alright?", she asked me, holding her hand on my forehead.
"TAEHYUNG!", I screamed and jerked forward.
„Darling, it's me! You had another nightmare!", my mother said with a voice full of worries.
My shirt was completely sweaty and I had a fast pulse.
I looked around the room, as I was not really awake, everything was blurry.
I saw my alarm clock standing on my bedside table and saw that it was 5 am.

When I saw clearly again, I also saw my mother looking at me with concern.
I leaned back in my bed.
"Darling, did you dream of Taehyung again?", she asked me, stroking my upper arm.
I said nothing.
"If something is wrong, please let me know.", She said and went to the door and disappeared back to her bedroom.
I could not stop crying, I missed him too much.

I rolled around in my bed and realized that I could not fall asleep anymore.
Since the time with Taehyung, I have suffered from sleep problems and depression.

I feel uncomfortable since it was my first night in Seoul.
We moved back here and I know that tae lives here.
That only made things worse.

I had the thought to text taehyung before we moved here.
But whenever I text him, he blocks me.
I understand him, but I do not have the chance to explain myself if he keeps blocking me.
Since I knew that he never changed his number, I will write to him again today.

I hope he does not block me today when I tell him I'm back in Seoul.

I picked up my phone and went down to the kitchen.
Since I certainly can not sleep anymore I made myself a coffee.

I went down the stairs and tried to be quiet because my mother was sleeping.
My mother is very sensitive to noise and when I wake her up I feel bad because she works hard every day.
Since the death of my father, she has been feeling very bad.
Of course, I'm not feeling better, but it's more important to me that my mother is happy.

I turned on the light in the kitchen and took out my favorite cup, the cup taehyung gave me then in saison.

When my coffee was ready, I sat down at the dining table and picked up my phone.
I went to my photo gallery and saw the pictures and videos of taehyung and me.
I bursted into tears but also had to smile because of the wonderful memories.

He is so damn beautiful in blue.
Wow, my look doesn't changed that much.

That was on my 18th birthday, we were so drunk afterwards.
Oh god, I miss him so much.

That was when Jimin foamed his hair.
I miss his boxy smile so much, shit.

A little older video of us.

Shit, I can not look at it anymore.
I threw my phone on the table and buried myself in my arms.

I played around with my phone and went on Instagram.
I typed in taehyung's name in the search engine.
He does not know that I have instagram and I have never texted him on instagram.
When I was on his page, I saw that he uploaded a new picture.

He looks so beautiful.. I miss him so badly.
This is my chance.
Taehyung, I will fight. No matter what.