Hurting

The Truth

I awoke to Sam wrapped around me. Smiling I gently brushed his hair out of his face.
"Dammit. Why does he have to be so freaking cute when he sleeps?"
Guilt prodded at me, trying to get my attention which it worked. I let my guilt come out while I watched Sam sleep.
"Just tell Sam your bi. He should accept you, shouldn't he?" I felt my panic arise. What if Sam doesn't accept me for being bi? I began to fidget at that thought. I mean he has always made those gay jokes with me. Always saying that I must be gay or something like that. "Always laughed about it but could never him you are in love with him. You really are pathetic."
"Stop it Colby." I muttered to myself, trying my best to reassure myself that he will accept me.

I almost jumped out of my skin when Sam woke up and I'm pretty sure I made him almost jump out of his skin because of me.
"Colby, Jesus Christ. You almost scared me to death. Are you okay?" Sam's blue eyes narrowed when he noticed me fidgeting. Turning my head away from Sam, I couldn't help but run my fingers through my hair. It was a nervous tick I picked up in when I was in middle school.
"Hey, Colbs. Are you okay? Why, what are you nervous about?" Sam was worried now and I could just feel it radiate off him. "Damn you Sam. Why do you notice theses things?"
"Colby?"
"Yeah, um Sam I - I need to tell you something." I stammered. Twirling my rings, I tried to push down my panic.
"Okay. What is it Colby?" I opened my mouth to tell him but nothing came out. Squeezing my eyes shut, the panic was starting to take over. Taking a few deep breaths, I turned and faced Sam.
"S - Sam, I'm bisexual. I'm mostly attracted to men then women." I felt my panic rise even more when Sam didn't respond.
"Sam probably hates you now that you've said it."
"Colby. Colby this is amazing! I always thought you were bi. Oh my god, Colby! I'm so fucking proud of you! Sam pulled me into a hug, smiling.
"Sam. There is one more thing I need to mention." I murmured into Sam's ear. "Okay, what is it."
"I'm in love with y - you." There. It was out. I told Sam I was bi and in love with him. The only thing is, Sam didn't respond. Panic was basically eating me alive right now. I needed to hear Sam's voice.

Sam's pov
Did Colby just tell me he's in love with me? There is no way he just said that. My thoughts going wild, I let Colby's words sink in. "There is no fucking way he just said he is in love with me? Should I tell him I'm bi too? I don't know what to do right now." All I did is hug Colby tighter. I didn't know how I felt.
"I'm bi too. So don't feel alone right now because I'm bi too Colby." I gently said to him, looking into his gorgeously, bright blue eyes. Colby looked away in shock. He was smiling but I noticed something else was bothering him.
"Should I tell him. Tell him me and Katrina broke up? Or tell him my little secret too?"
"I never knew..." Colby's sweet voice brought me back to the present living. " I never knew you were bi. Does Katrina know?" I felt the pain of missing Katrina for a spilt second.
"Me and Katrina broke up Colby." I told him without hesitation. It was like a bullet went straight through him because he suddenly looked so guilty. "I'm so sorry Sam. I - I didn't know... God I'm such an idiot."
"You are not an idiot Colby. Don't blame yourself for not knowing what happened. It's okay, really." I hushed him with my soothing tone.
"I want you to know something too." I stared into Colby's eyes, smiling.