Small Book of Poetry

What Should I Believe in?

It's been awhile since I've gone to church

To watch the pastor stand on his perch.

It's been awhile since I've prayed for anybody

So I'm not sure if i should say Hallelujah to ya.

It's been a while since I've said thanks when i wake up in the morning

I'm not even sure if i'm supposed to say anything.

It's been awhile since I've sang and danced with a building full of people singing' the same songs but i'm not even sure if i should sing with em.

It's been awhile since i've even believed all this preaching was right

Now all i see is the truth about our overlords every night.

It's been a while since i've been able to be honest with my family

Unfortunately i'm not sure i can be honest anymore.

All these elders i know talk about thanking god and doing things for him and all i can respond with is.......

I guess.

But because of this, i'm too scared to admit all the things they believe aren't good reason to live......to me.

Will i ever open up to my family and say what i believe in, no

Now it's not that i don't trust them, not at all

It's that i don't think i'll deserve to be in their company after saying no to what they have taught me.

But because of that fear, all i know is that

I don't know what to believe in.