Undeniably Inclined.

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Adam

I go down to dinner after my shower and can't help but think of seeing him naked whenever I look at him now. Before I can avoid eye contact he says,

"Did you manage to find the shampoo I left it on top of cupb -"

"I saw you um naked."

What did I just do. Oh my lord.

"Oh um why what do you mean"

"I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't have looked but I thought you were done so I went into your room and the door was open so -"

"Adam, it's fine haha let's just act like it didn't happen"

We sit in front of the TV and eat the pasta he made. It feels weird to be in this situation, at home I sat in silence and ate my dinner answering questions about how school is going and if I'm failing anything. It feels good to just be me for once.

"So who did you meet after school today if you don't mind me asking?"

"No um I met Graha - a boy from our year group, you'll probably meet him in September anyway"

"Oh well it's good you're talking to your peers again"

"I can go home tomorrow if you want. You probably need your privacy and I can't exactly be at my 'friends' house forever"

"Adam, you can stay as long as you want but eventually you're going to have to speak to your parents, tell them how you feel."

"They won't listen trust me. Can we just talk about something else?"

"Sure. There's no bed time so feel free to sleep when you want although, I don't suggest it considering you have to be up earlier haha."

Before I can respond my phone rings and it's Graham. Should I answer? I don't know. Well I guess I could speak to someone my age. Freya and Carlisle are still AWOL. I answer,

"Hey Graham."

"Hi Adam, sorry to call you back so soon haha I was just calling to check if you're free Saturday?"

"Um sure for what?"

"My dad is hosting a dinner. He asked your parents to come too. Is it too soon considering we started speaking literally hours ago."

"No of course not. Although I don't think my parents will be able to make it and I think showing up alone will give off the wrong impression."

"Oh okay another time then. I gotta go I have to do the history homework. See you tomorrow."

It's annoying that I don't have the normal parents to attend these type of things. I finish my pasta and Mr Anderson says,

"I know I shouldn't eavesdrop but I could go with you on Saturday"

"No way! Imagine bringing my teacher to a dinner. Gives off the wrong impression"

"Yeah you're probably right. Come on let me take you to your room"

I follow him up the stairs. My heart starts beating fast and I'm not really sure why. Before I can get lost in my thoughts he interrupts me,

"So if you need anything I'll be in my room."

"Mr Anderson"

"Adam?"

"Why are you doing this?"

"What do you mean? I told you I just want to help you. I understand if you're scared, you've been through a lot. I hope I haven't pressured you into doing anything"

"No of course not. Thank you for everything you've done. I'm just tired. I'll see you in the morning. Night."

2am. I'm at James's house. Blood scattered over the floor. My hand covered in them. I walk towards to the door and try to get out. It's locked. I bang on the door, screaming help. I turn around and James is standing behind me with a knife. I scream louder. Before I can run to the window he grabs me. It's over.

Awake.

"Adam! Adam! Adam. Wake up. It's just a dream. Wake up. It's going to be okay."

I wake up and realise it was all a dream. Mr Anderson is sitting in front of me saying something to me but his words sound distant. I regain all of my senses again and realise I had been shouting in real life.

"I'm sorry I - I thought I was - he was back and - what's wrong with me"

I break down and cry and to be honest I'm sick of myself crying all the time. What's wrong with me.

"Nothings wrong with you. Having nightmares after such a traumatic incident is normal"

"I'm sorry for waking you, you have work tomorrow I'll be fine you can go back."

"Are you sure you don't want me to stay?"

"Are you sure?"

"Of course, I want you to feel safe"

"Thank you."

He lies down on the other side and It is very awkward right now. I try to sleep again but given the circumstances I'm very much awake. I turn to the side and now I'm facing him but he's facing towards the ceiling. His eyes are closed but I know he's awake. I move closer and put my arm around him. What am I doing oh my god. He starts to move and I already know he's going to tell me to stop. He looks at me and says,

"Adam. what are you doing?"

"I'm sorry I was scar - I'll move"

"No it's um fine"

I move closer and look into his fluorescent blue eyes. Almost like the ocean but memorising. My stomach tingles. He touches my face. I can't help but move closer. His soft rosy lips lock into mine and adrenaline rushes through my veins. He continues and I do the same and it lasts. It's wrong but feels so right. I'm 16 now anyway. Why am I justifying this. It just feels amazing. I start to take off his top.

"Adam are you sure you want to do this?"

"Yes are you?"

He continues to kiss me and I get the answer. We snog and it feels right. I lift up his top and brush my hands across his abs. He kisses my neck and I can feel him getting excited. He removes my clothes. I slowly push down his trousers whilst he kisses my lips. Before I can think we're both naked. He puts on the condom and gets the lube. Moments later fireworks light up in my head and I'm on cloud 9. He's gentle. I smile and he kisses me and we continue till one of us reaches our climax.

After we finish we lie down and he hugs me and we fall asleep. 6am. Despite having like 5 hours of sleep. I feel like I'm on a caffeine high. I know yesterday night was dangerous but I couldn't help it. He made me feel something. He makes me feel... Alive.