Inseparable {A.M. Fanfic} (Book 1)

Chapter 22: Hurt~

Last chapter of book 1!!!!

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Austin and i are doing a quick Ustream in his room. Im just kind of sitting next to him watching and reading the questions. Theres a lot of hateful comments towards me. Austin sees them too. At first i just try to ignore it but then both Austin and i start getting notifications on Twitter of people saying hateful things about me. Some say:

'Your so ugly i don't see how Austin could stand to date you.'

Or,

'Austin doesn't really care about you he's just dating you for the publicity.'

And the most hurtful one yet,

'Everybody hates you so you should just go kill yourself. No one cares. Not even Austin.'

I look at Austin then rush to my bathroom and lock the door.

I keep a switch blade in one of my drawers. I take it out. The hate comments have been getting worse and worse as the months go on, I thought i could handle it but i cant. I start crying and before i can even think about stopping i start cutting. Tears fill my eyes making everything blurry but i keep cutting, not wanting to stop. Then someone tries to open the door. I quickly put the knife away. But there isn't any toilet paper to wipe the blood away.

"Sade open the door!" Austin says.

I don't answer.

"Sade! Please!" Austin says.

I still don't answer.

"I will break down the door if i have to." He says.

I still don't answer or get up to open the door.

"Austin whats going on?" I hear Mamma ask.

"Sade locked herself in her bathroom. She was getting hate from fans." Austin says.

"I have a key, hold on." Mamma says.

Then a few minutes later the knob is being jiggled and Austin come bursting in. I don't dare look at him.

"Oh my gosh. Sade." He says rushing to my side.

"I cant believe you did this." He says.

"I couldn't help it." I cry, "its gone to far Austin. I cant do this." I say.

I start balling my eyes out. Austin pulls me to him.

"Shhh. Its okay." He says, his voice shaky.

Is he..crying? That just makes me cry even more.

"Its okay." He repeats.

Soon i end up crying myself to sleep.

I wake up in the middle of the night. Austin is asleep on the chair in my room. I go over and crouch down next to him. I place my hand on his cheek. His eyes slowly open.

"Hey." He whispers.

"Hi." I whisper back.

"Are you okay?" He asks.

"To be honest, no." I say.

"Come here." He says then grabs my hand and leads me to the bathroom.

He takes the switch blade i used before out of the drawer.

"Do what you did to yourself to me." He says handing it to me.

"What? Are you crazy? I would never do that." I say.

"When you cut, it hurts me more than it hurts you. Because it makes me feel like all the things I've been telling you don't matter. And that everything I've done to try to get you not to do things like this didn't help at all and you don't care." He says.

"Austin thats-thats not true. You know that." I say.

"No, i don't actually." He says, "so cut me like you did to yourself." He says.

"Austin I'm not doing that." I say.

"Then promise me you wont cut again." He says looking me straight in the eyes.

I don't answer at first.

"Sade." He says firmly.

"I-i promise. I promise." I say.

"Good. Now come here." He says spreading his arms out.

I walk into his arms. We stand there hugging for a long time.

"Sade, your my best friend. And if anything happened to you i honestly have know idea what i would do. You've always been there for me more than i have for you. So please let me be here for you through this." He says.

A tear rolls down my cheek and i pull away and look him. I nod.

"Dont ever hurt yourself again. Do you understand?" He asks tears filling his eyes.

I nod again.

"I love you so much Sade. You have no idea." He says.

"I love you too." I say.

He cups his hands on my face and leans down and kisses me.

"You tired?" He asks.

"Exhausted." I say.

"Alright. Let get some sleep then." He says.

We go back to my room and get in my bed. Austin drapes one arm over my stomach and runs his fingers through my hair with the other. He starts to hum and soon i fall asleep.

The bright sun wakes me up.

I moan.

"Why don't you have curtains?" I ask sleepily.

"Sorry." Austin says in his morning voice.

He's still not fully awake, yet neither am i.

"Do you know how sexy your morning voice is?" I ask.

"Did you just call me sexy?" He asks.

"No. I said your morning voice is sexy, not you." I say.

"So you don't think I'm sexy?" He asks.

"Ehhh." I say.

"Hey!" He says.

I giggle then he starts to tickle me.

"S-stop!" I laugh.

He stops. I turn to him.

"Sade I-" he starts.

"Don't. I don't to talk about it. I just want to try to move on." I say knowing what he is going to say.

"Okay. Well before we know it I'm gonna be going on tour for my E.P. thats coming out soon. Are you comfortable coming on the tour? Cause if your not you could stay here or go live back with your dad." He says.

"No i'll come! Are you crazy? Me miss the biggest year of my best friends life? Yeah right." I say.

He smiles.

"Good because i really wanted you to come, but i didn't want to push you to it." He says.

"Of course i'll come. I want to support you." I say.

"Guess what?" He asks.

"What?" I ask.

"I love you." He says.

I smile.

"I love you too Austin." I say.

We kiss.

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Okay ya'll i really want to get Inseparable to 500 reads before i start to post the sequel! So if you like this book tell other people about it cause I'm not posting the sequel till i get 500 reads!!