"There wasn't a single kiss passed between us, not a single graze of my hand on your skin, and not a single word spoken, yet somehow it was the most intimate moment I've ever shared with anyone" Ryan's text ticks of on my my brightly lit screen. I'm thankful for Ryan , i really am, but sometimes i really believe that he deserves more, i can't help but feel like he gives his all to me yet I'm still keeping so much from him. We've been together for 3 months now and that text was referring to the very first time we met, at the football game my uncle matt took us to , i had too much to drink, you could say and so eventually I passed out, he found me in the girl's bathroom after an hour of the " looking for the drunk girl" hunt and we've been inseparable ever since.
How could you love someone so much, yet you don't want to give away your all just yet. Strange isn't it? Love.
The first class of the day was calculus. hell was an understatement to the hell that Miss Ravenscroft put us through. But one of the many reasons i love this lady is because she's fearless and can make anyone do whatever she desires and you'd still be surprised by how calm she is.
Ryan picks me up at 2:45pm everyday but since he's planning to take me on a date later on tonight he decides to head out early so we have enough time to get ready.
"hey, " Ryan says as he wraps his arm around my waistline.
"so where exactly are we going? " I ask observantly wanting to know what I'm expected to wear tonight.
"dress pretty,its a surprise," he casually blurts out as he cups my face into his hand and gently kisses me. I can feel his heart hammering against my chest and it causes my own heart to try and outrace his, he pulls away, gasping for air.
"wow, " he states breathlessly while exhaling. I shoot him quite a triumphant look then climb into the Jeep.
"don't you ever wonder what your mother was like? " he nervously insists on asking questions about my mom. I hesitate at first but usually end up giving in. His face. I can't explain it.
"all the time, " I remark. Death is inevitable right? If a person goes missing for 17 years , doesn't that just means that they aren't coming back?
My father called me this morning to wish me a happy birthday, i haven't seen him since he moved in with yet another one of his girlfriends. What did my mom see in him? The one thing i still can't quite wrap my head around. Wasn't matt supposed to protect her from getting hurt? I think to myself. Things can get very cryptic in this family.
"we're here, I'll pick you up at 5 be ready! "Ryan shouts excitedly.
"okay, " i say as i kiss him on the cheek and escort myself out of the car.
I wonder what she's up to if she's alive, my mind keeps asking. I sigh and enter the house to start getting ready.
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where wings can fall
Romanceafter the disappearance of her mom , jane lives a life that seems so perfect , her uncle and his wife have created a stable home where she is family , but when her mother suddenly appears one day and tries to convince her otherwise , jane has to ret...
