(2 years prior to leaving)
It's so hard to leave , until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world. I didn't leave because i wanted to, i left because i had to. Wes was abusive , i knew he loved me ever so dearly but whatever drug he was on had completely got to him and destroyed him both mentally and physically, i keep telling lesley he cheats on me when in fact all he does is lay his hands on me. My Mother died early so i didn't quite have anyone to help me with my choices so i just do what i wanna do. Eversince we moved to crosby street things have started to go downhill it's like Tyler's death was a sign that i shouldn't be here. Tyler was my mother's bestfriend and quiet the flirt i have to say. Tyler died a few nights after we moved back in, doctors claim it was simply an accident and that he had overdosed on cocaine but knowing Tyler he wasn't capable of that thing, but i think i know who is. My dad doesn't like Wes he says that Wes reminds him too much of himself when he was younger and that i deserve more. Matt is with Lesley and my dad just loves her, Lesley is the type of girl you see in movies, the one who's at the top of all her classes but has this little rebel inside of her fighting to come out. Her parents are happily married and her relationship with Matt is all anyone could ever ask for , sometimes i wish to have a life like Lesley's simple and sweet. I still remember the day we met; lesley and I. I could feel it in the air that day -- the retreat of summer. The suffocating heat of july had given way to cooler August afternoons. And it wasn't just the heat that had abated; it was our moods too. She too knew the person who must have done this to Tyler, it was a secret that wasn't exchanged between us but we were both well aware of it. I couldn't believe the lies he was spinning , how easily he manipulated the facts until the story played in his favour. Imagining Tyler in such a situation haunts me. He must have felt the cocaine claw its way down his throat, into his lungs. He held him there, until his body went still and limp, the beat of his pulse flickering out. Tyler was such an inextricable part of who I was and who I'm yet to become and yet, i had played only a small part in his life.
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where wings can fall
Romanceafter the disappearance of her mom , jane lives a life that seems so perfect , her uncle and his wife have created a stable home where she is family , but when her mother suddenly appears one day and tries to convince her otherwise , jane has to ret...