What is the source of your disgust?
When I do what used to please you I am trash, not a jewel. You never change.
Listen to this trash, then, sir. You are disgusted because what I did forever damaged that beautiful thing we had.
Oh, how ignorant you are. We never had anything. The only difference now is you know it, and you can't deny it.
Every happy memory you have of me is fake. Forced smiles. Humorless laughs. Fearful gestures. Hoping to not get caught being the trash I've always been.
Are you wishing you'd thrown me away when you had a reason?
You still can now. But you won't.
You're too afraid someone will judge you. You're too afraid anyone will know the truth.
2-6-19
-for Saul
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Blind Leading Blind
PuisiMy third book of poetry. Sometimes I just can't see, yet somehow I find words, and if someone understood them, they'd look around and wonder where I led them. And I couldn't say. I couldn't say. -October Listen, in the peace of nonpursual. Words yo...
