Beyond Us- Book Three

•••Chapter Eight•••

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<Thora Violet> Hillary opened her door with a yawn and let me in. She locked it again and looked at me from head to toe. I pulled the wig off and she sat on a chair next to the bed. "Tell me it didn't happen again."

"It did. Can I just go to bed?" I took my clothes off and she held my hand.

"Do you feel good about this? Does it make you feel better?"

"I'm not ready to be committed. I keep telling you this."

"And it's wrong. I feel very bad when I see Gabby in the mornings. I lie to him, you lie to him and he's a good person."

"Everybody was."

"I'm telling him tomorrow." she threatened.

"Go ahead. I've nothing to lose. I'm tired of him too." I lied on the bed and closed my eyes.

"Violet," she knows I hate my own name now. Hearing it from someone else reminds me of a lot of things. It weakens me. "Violet, please have a change of mind. This life doesn't suit you."

"I don't love anymore Hillary. You know I've been trying with Gabby. It just won't work out at all. I don't do it anymore."

"Give anyone a chance. Open up your heart again."

"I can't. I won't."

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I woke up in a lonely room with no sounds from Ava or Jared in the house. My head was aching so badly. I sat up on the bed and gently stood up. My whole body was falling off. I was weak, tired and hungry.

"Hillary," I called. I stepped out of the bedroom and heard chatters coming from the kitchen. I walked there and Hillary was with Gabby. He didn't look like he was in a good mood. Hillary was sitting opposite of him and she smiled at me. He didn't. "Hey," I said to them. "Where are the kids?"

"Gabby took them to school." Hillary answered. Gabriel stood up from the chair, walking away. I held his hand and he calmly took it off.

"You've been drinking again, haven't you?" he asked in a quiet but angry tone. I looked at Hillary and she pointed to the bin.

"I was having a hard time last night..."

"Because I almost proposed to you?" I stood still looking at the floor. "You were having a hard time because of that?"

"That's..."

"Thora I know you don't want to call what we're having a relationship but we've been fucking each other, living together, taking care of a kid together and I do love you. I know the story of how someone fucked up your life in the past. Not every guy comes into your life to fuck you up. There are better ones out there who are willing to give more than they deserve and it's up to you to make that choice. You keep pushing me away and I'll really walk away if you keep this up." he said and walked out on me.

"Gabriel,"

"Let him go Thora. Fix yourself first." she offered me a glass of water and I gulped it down. "I think he knows you've been going out at night to uh... you know to do other guys. Do you want to tell him about it? He might help out."

"I want him to find out on his own,"

"You've gone really crazy and stupid Thora. What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"I really like how I'm living. I don't have to worry about any heartbreaks and stupid heartaches."

"Because Chris Brady broke your heart and Asher Miller went bad on you? You're fucking your self up."