Beautiful Scars // MGK

032

**Colsons last day in Detroit before continueing tour has arrived**

"Colson! STOP! Give me back my phone please..." Olivia muttered as Colson wouldn't stop being annoying the entire morning. "We can trade. I get a kiss, and you, get your phone back." Colson smirked as he held her phone so high she couldn't reach it. "This is the last time I'm buying this. Next time I'll be kicking you in the nutsack." Olivia spoke as she couldn't help but laugh at him. "But you haven't even enjoyed my nutsack yet... Don't ruin the fun before you've even started!" He chuckled before he gave her a passionate kiss on the lips, tucking her phone in her back pocket.

He placed his hand on her ass and slowly let it slide up and under her t-shirt, so he could get to her bra. Before he could undo it, Olivia jumped up and pushed him away. "I.... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do anything you don't want to do..." Colson stuttered as he stepped back with his hands in front of him. Tears in her eyes as she looked up at him. "It's okay... I just... I'm not ready to go there just yet... I'm sorry.." She mumbled as she slowly stepped back and looked back at her feet. "Babe what are you saying sorry for..? It's okay, I don't mind waiting for you.." Colson spoke as he reached for her hand and stepped closer to her. "It's not okay Colson, none of this is okay. You're leaving in a few hours, and I know you usually have girls all over the tourbus and shit and Im not okay with knowing that I cant fucking give you want you want!" Olivia blurted as she refused to grab his hand.

Colson tilted his head to the side in confusion, as he let his hand fall back to his side. "Liv... I honestly don't necessarily need sex. I just... I didn't think about it, I kind of just... I'm sorry.." "Colson, stop saying sorry. You're not wrong. I'm just not capable of giving myself to you. I'm sorry, I'm not what you want, I'm just not what you need." Olivia started to cry as she broke from the inside. They were in Colson's hotel room, where they'd stayed the night. Colson watched Olivia break on the inside as she let herself slide to the floor against the wall.

"Baby... you need to realise I'm here for a reason. You, are EVERYTHING I want and more than I deserve, I love you, and I need all of you, all the time. I don't care that you're not ready to go there yet, you're worth the wait." He spoke as he sat on the floor next to her. "You shouldn't have to wait." Liv cried as she turned her back to Colson. "I want you, so yes, I should... Liv, I love you, and it breaks my heart to see you like this." Colson spoke as he wanted nothing more than to cuddle her up in his arms and let her sob into his chest until she calmed down, but he kept his arms to himself, not knowing if she'd let him after what happened. She didn't reply, she just cried into her arms, not wanting to look at the man who she loved deeply.

The sight of his broken girl broke something inside of him. Colson just sat there, affraid to touch her, affraid she'd leave if he tried anything she didn't want. So, looking at her felt like the only thing he really could do. So he did, he spent over an hour watching the girl he loves cry over something so little and so stupid, but he was scared to go to her. He had been apologising constantly, but she didn't say a word, making him more nervous everytime.

"Liv, if you need me to leave... I can go?" He asked as he literally felt himself breaking inside, watching her crying by herself. "Please don't." She suddenly said as she turned around, looking him in the eyes. "Liv, if you want me to stay, I'll stay, but please talk to me because this? This is breaking me inside out. I did this to you. And I'm realy, realy sorry. But in order to help you, I need you to talk to me... I need to know what's going on, okay..?" Colson spoke as she looked her in the eyes, hurt by the tears that kept falling from them. "I know... I'm sorry..." She muttered under her breath. "No, I'm sorry. You didn't do anything wrong, you gotta realise that." He spoke, still not sure if he should comfort her or not. 

"But Colson, I did. I should've told you I wasn't ready, I shouldn't have pushed you off like that, and I shouldn't have shut you out for the past hour. I'm sorry." She sobbed as she burried her head in her hands. "Olivia, listen to me, okay? When someone is as messed up as you are, it's more than logical they're not ready to give all of themselves. I knew that, okay? I didn't expect you to be ready to take it to the next step yet, I let it slip my mind, and it's MY FAULT, I went too far, you didn't have to tell me anything for me to understand, I knew, and I ignored that, so I'm sorry." He spoke again. "You're not going to let me say sorry again, are you?" She chuckled through tears as she looked up again. "No I'm not, it's all on me so you shouldn't apologise, okay?" He smiled as she looked at him. She nodded as more tears fought their way out. 

"Can I hug you now..? Because god, I really want to and I've wanted to for the past hour." He laughed as he opened his arms for her. "Of course you can hug me Colson, hug me whenever you want." She smiled as she crawled into his arms and felt him wrap his arms around her tightly. "I love you, you know that right?" She whispered. "I certainly hope you do, cause I'm head over heels for you girl." He chuckled, holding her even tighter in his arms.

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A/N
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Hey guys! I'm genuinly sorry for the lack of updates, I'm really struggling to find time to read because my college work seems out to murder me and I'm really stressed out, it's close to holidays now, so I'm hoping to bulk some chapters over the holiday so I can go back to uploading regularly.

I truly hope you enjoyed this chapter as shitty as it is xx

LOVE YOU LOTS XOXOXO

p.s. If any of you struggle with any of the subjects in this book, please feel free to reach out, I'd be glad to be of help x