An hour later she finally had the courage to grab her phone. Tears still rolling down her face as she unlocked it, sobbing at the texts Colson sent her. She sat back down on the floor and navigated into Colsons texts.
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
Morning bb XX
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
Hope you slept well ♡
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
Wanna FaceTime in a bit? Im heading out later and I prolly won't be able to FaceTime till tomorrow morning
Olivia stood up to look at herself in the mirror. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying and she looked like shit. He can't see me like this, not right before he leaves to have fun with friends.
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
I've slept well don't worry bout that :)
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
I'm out w/ mom rn, Im sorry :(
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
It's okay, we'll have to go a while without seeing each other then :( x
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
I'm sorry </3
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
It's not ur fault really, u okay? X
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
I love you XX
She locked her phone and put it down on the table. She heard it vibrate but ignored it. Lying to him gave her the most fucked up feeling possible. He didn't deserve to be lied to so much.
Realising she didn't play it really smart made her feel even worse. Her phone lit up and "Kellz ;)" appeared on her screen. Was she going to pick up? She didn't want to. She should.
You should.
Break up with him.
Break his heart for the greater good.
"I really don't want to lose him. Stop saying that..." She cried. The phone went silent for a second then started vibrating again.
You worried him over nothing.
Piece of garbage.
Pick up. Yell at him.
She sobbed on as she had no intention of worrying him more, but she was struggling in a fight against her own mind. She grabbed her phone and quickly typed a message to him before he would be worried sick over nothing.
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
I'm okay, I'll call you later XX
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
I know something's up, pls just pick up
He called again. Olivia typed another message in tears.
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
I'm having a rough day, I'll tell you all about it later but please just let me figure it out, I promise I wont do anything and Im available all day through text... xx
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
I'm really sorry for being a pushy boyfriend and I know you sometimes just need some alone time
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
And I'm willing to give you some alone time, on one condition..
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
And what might that be?
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
I get to text you every hour, and you reply so I know nothing's happened to you
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
That can't be it, I feel like there's an 'and' coming....
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
I'll stay off you're back except for those texts, until 7.30. I'm Calling you at 7.30, until you pick up. Deal? Even if it's only 5 minutes.
To: Kellz ;)
From: You
That sounds fair. I love you, okay? XX
To: You
From: Kellz ;)
Be safe, I love you too XX
He was literally the sweetest. Olivia lay down on the couch, connecting her phone to the Bluetooth on the radio. As Colson sounded through the speakers she put down her phone and just stared at the white ceiling. Her thoughts taking over completely. She missed the time she experienced a week ago. The time she spent being happy, being with Colson. She was giving him a hard time on everything. Even now, when he wasn't even around, she influenced his day in a bad way. How on earth could he allow her to just come and ruin all of his day with one text. One lie. His deal was fair, she had until 7.30 to calm down so she could talk to him on the phone. Easy, right? 4 hours. Should be doable.
**7.29**
One minute early. No call yet. She took a deep breathe and pressed call behind Colsons name. She had calmed down to the point she could speak without bursting back into tears, there was no trembling in her voice and she didn't have voice cracks anymore. She was still shaking and her head hurt, her eyes red and puffy from crying all day.
"Yeah, I'll be back I have to take this one, sorry." She heard him say as he answered the phone. "Hey, are you okay? What's going on?" He immediately asked, sounding slightly pissed. "I'm fine... I just- I needed some time." Live spoke, her heart aching knowing he was worried and she jusy shut him out the entire day. "Talk to me, Liv. I want to help." He mumbled. "I know you do.. Bit I don't want to ruin your mood just before you go on stage like I did before you went out eith your friends. I'm sorry.." Liv spoke as she stood up and paced around in the living room. "Not knowing anything will make things worse. If I know what's happening, I know what to say and how to help. Because Liv, what you are doing, isn't healthy.." Colson sounded so worried, Liv started breaking inside. "I know it's not healthy, Colson.. Don't worry, I'm okay now, I haven't cut and I didn't do anything other than cry."
"Liv, you know I love you... right?" He suddenly spoke. "Yes, I do. You tell me everyday and I'm honestly so grateful.." She spoke, baffled by this sudden question. "But, when i say it, I mean do you believe it?" "I think so... I mean, I really want to." She sniffed as she knew where he was headed. She knew she was being in the wrong, not talking to him.
"You know how I want nothing more than for you to be happy? I want to make you happy, every day, but when you refuse talking to me, it makes it very hard for me to help you. Just know I'm here for you whenever you need me." He spoke, making her melt.
"That's the nicest thing anyone ever said to me. Thank you. Please, don't ever leave me.."
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Sorry if the chapter is crappy, I've not really been into writing lately bc I had a lot going on. Hope you guys enjoyed anyway, and let me know what you're hoping to happen next XX
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Beautiful Scars // MGK
FanfictionBeautiful Scars, a Colson Baker (Machine Gun Kelly) fanfiction In which Olivia coincidentally meets her idol, and he helps her getting out of a deep, black hole of depression. She has no idea who he is, all she really knows on him is his phone numbe...
