This Is Us

Chapter 1

Chapter One

Today was my first day of Christmas Break. I took my finals a week early so I can come home this weekend. It's Trina's birthday tomorrow and also Margot comes home tomorrow too. I always pick her up from the airport... i plan to keep that tradition until Margot graduates.

For now, It's just one of those things i want to keep constant since for some reason everything else isn't going as well as I want it to.

My eyes stay on the ceiling and around my room. Not much has changed here at all and I like it. I haven't been home since before thanksgiving break... actually if I think about it I haven't been home for November either

(I was planning to come home for thanksgiving but i was assigned host for the Asian-thanksgiving dinner at school for the asian exchange students... interestingly enough Dad was alright with me not coming home which i'm sure it's because he hates the seven hour drive back and forth...)

And now it comes to me that I haven't been back home for two months, today.

It's so weird that during that time there's has been lot of things that has changed at the house. Our couch is new, because apparently Jamie Fox-Pickle decided it was a good idea to chew on the cushions. From the stories I heard, he had gotten so much trouble only to find out that Kitty had spilled food on the back cushion that's why he ate at it.

So with the new couch they decided to change the entire living room set too, "to match". I like it. It's a nice shade of blue from our old red designs. Though, i have a tiny feeling that Margot is going to be upset at this since it was mom's couch and all.

There are little changes in the house too. Theres a few side tables at most every corner with lots of photos of the family with us Song girls with Trina, dad and us then the dogs too.

But my favorite part was (which Kitty said is Trina's idea) was putting a table with photos with just sisters with mom and then all five of us. I almost teared up when i saw it.

"She will always be part of our lives, and I am sad i didn't get to know her before. The photos remind me of what I have to treasure and that's all you guys." Trina had said as she hugged me, and at least I didn't end up crying.

I moved around my bed, and turned. There I was staring at photos of me and Peter from my birthday "sixteen candles" he did for Prom earlier this year.

My heart clenched. Remembering how I was so happy that day and wanted to bring it all back. I groaned to myself. I still recall my wish and it made me think of how things were so simple back then. If i knew it was gonna be that hard I would have made a totally different wish.

Love wasn't enough at all because relationship takes work. And work it definitely it was... Peter and I did fine the first month when school had started but eventually it had gotten so hard that the next two months after that was such a struggle. I barely had time to call him for last day calls because i'd come home super late that he's already asleep. Then what's worse is we keep fighting on the phone for stupid reasons. I think not seeing each other enough took it's toll in our relationship and it ended.

If i think about it now, I don't remember what happened exactly. How we remained broken up but it was maybe because we both knew how hard it was for both of us... it was probably easier to be this way. Much easier to focus on our goals and not be distracted by us.

Which is what i keep telling myself all these weeks...

"Hey, you gonna take me to Kristene's right?" Kitty's voice broke my thoughts. Which i'm thankful because everytime i think about Peter I tend to be emotional.