This Is Us

Chapter 26

Edit 9/09/2019

okay, so i posted this story in FF.net and didnt really finish it but thanks to you guys reading it and loving the story that i decided to continue the last 2 chapters that i planned to end this story. so let me know what you think! and thanks for reading okay here it goesss

A/N: I am really nervous about this chapter guys... i feel like it won't be as good as the chapter before... but I will try to make it a close second or something. PS i am still alive :) DISCLAIMERRRR!

Chapter Twenty Six

"Does it usually take this long?" I was anxiously bitting on nails as me and Margot stare at the stick for it to turn into a different color or is it a plus sign. I'm not sure, this isn't what I use at home.

Margot grabs my arms together to face her, "Calm down. Stop being so anxious, it's about the same time as any pregnancy tests."

My eyes was still staring at that blank spot until Margot shook me so I'd look at her instead. "What?" My voice is low and desperate. I don't want to let my sight off of it if it changes.

"Listen, it'll be okay. Theres a timer for a reason." She points at her phone which had a countdown of thirty seconds.

I just nod weakly. Twenty five seconds left till it'll come but I already know what it is going to say but I was hoping in my heart that it'll change. For the past eleven months, Peter and I have been trying for almost a year now and still—

The phone rang loudly, and it's time. I am teary eyed when I look up at Margot. Here is the moment if truth, hope is surging in and out of me... praying that the stick would finally change.

"Are you ready?" Margot asked.

I nod, it's now or never. I didn't even notice Margot turned the pregnancy test over so I'd only see it when I pick it up. I am shaking... prayer being chanted under my breath.

I turn the test...

Not Pregnant.

My heart fell to my stomach but a smile still leave my lips so Margot wouldn't be worried, I'm used to this fake expression, this is what I normally give to Peter when we both wait for the test to come out. It's easy usually but It's not a plus sign or a change of color, it actually tells you in your face that you can't give Peter a kid. Great.

"What? What?" Then she grabs it from me and her expression changed to pity and she hugs me.

"I'm fine!" My voice goes an octave higher but no tears leave my eyes. I'm so used to this disappointment I can't cry anymore. The first past two months I have been checking on my own because I can't deal with Peter's facial expression. I hated doing this tests alone that's why I spent the Friday at Margot's telling Peter I missed my nieces that's why I'm here. "Seriously," my voice is normal now, and I have to hug her back. Now I'm comforting my own sister.

"I'm sorry," She mumbles into my shoulder.

I had to fight the urge to roll my eyes, I don't really know why she's sorry. She already has two kids... while I can't even get knocked up. "You shouldn't be." I put my hands on her shoulder to push her off of me. Every since she's had children she's like me now, clingy and affectionate. I miss my Margot who'd say whatever is on her mind without a thought of thinking if it hurts other people or not.

Maybe I should have just done this with Kitty, if I knew she's be overly sensitive about this. "I'm not pregnant. It's that simple." I smile my perfect fake one when I want to hide what I'm truly feeling. I've had months of practice with Peter, fooling my sister would be easier.