This Is Us

Chapter 16

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Chapter Sixteen

I was sitting on the couch anxiously waiting for Mrs. Kavinsky. I offered to help her but she said to wait in the living room since she said it wasn't going to take long. But, every second she's away seems like an eternity for me and what makes things worse is I'm having war flashbacks from the time I was here alone. And I'm terrified because what if she's going to bring up breaking up with Peter being the best for him.

I know in my heart I can't go through that again. How I survived for two months without Peter, I can't even answer that. I have to stand my ground and protect my heart and Peter's as well.

Mrs. Kavinsky finally comes and she was carrying two mugs. I was about to stand but she gestured me to sit back down, "Careful it's quite hot," She hands me the mug.

"Thank you," My voice was low and I'm positive I'm the only person who can hear it. I held the mug tightly not even caring that it is hot in my palms. It was my only way to stop myself from shaking. I had to mentally tell myself to breath properly and not have a sigh escape my lips.

I stared intently at the steam from it.

I wish I had thought this through before I decided to do this. I have been wanting to speak to her for since the dinner. I know what I wanted to say to her but facing her now, I can't even get it together. I have completely forgotten why I needed to do this... or the words I practiced while I got dressed today. It's in the tip of my tongue but it's all jumbled up that I knew I messed up as soon as I spoke.

"I love Peter." Then I bit the bottom of my lip now hoping that I could run away but I had to do this. I'm already here... I already started...

Mrs. Kavinsky had the strangest expression in her face. She wasn't upset, in fact she seems amused. The way her lip curled reminds me of how Peter would smile when there's something he finds interesting or he's secretly wants to laugh but knows it's not the right time. Mrs. Kavinsky must know how nervous I am since now that disappeared and she gives me a soft stare, "I never doubted what you feel for my son, Lara Jean."

My heart stopped. I wasn't sure how I'm supposed to take that statement. She states she doesn't doubt it but from it she never acknowledged that the feelings I have is actually love. But then consider it, I shouldn't take it as anything because I believe parents don't really see their kids as someone to capable of having these emotions yet especially if in our age. They still see us as kids and not the adults that we are slowly turning to. Daddy even never really said that Peter loves me but used words to describe that Peter does.

So this time, I let myself sigh. It's a way of trying to relax. I need to, so I can talk properly. "I really do understand that you believe Peter and I shouldn't be in a serious relationship when we are still young. You think that it might get us distracted from our goals." I say and from the look I got from her just now, I am a 100% positive that I am correct.

She doesn't say anything but she just waits.

"You really don't have to worry about that, Mrs. Kavinsky. Peter and I know what we want for our future. We are quite aware how important school is. Especially Peter, He has his head straight when it comes to that. He knows what is at stake." This is why I didn't pressure Peter from writing the letters and that I was having a hard time calling him at night when he is sleeping and I'm still studying. He has more responsibilities than me. He has Lacrosse, school and a long-distance relationship was a struggle to balance at times, well I thought it was. Peter was actually doing really well, I was not.