under the moonlight - doil

chapter 8 : under the moonlight

Day by day passed by, Doyoung feeling for Taeil keep getting stronger. He tried to get rid the feeling by trying to spend more times outside of the dorm, trying to not intimate any conversation with Taeil.

Every time it didn't work out when he MC-ed any Dreamies related, Haechan and Mark will bring out Taeil, when he DJ-ed on Ennana Johnny and Jaehyun will talk about Taeil, when he had voice recording, it will always be with Taeil.

Doyoung come to his sense if he can't get away from Taeil its impossible for him to forget his feeling toward Taeil, moreover, the more he tried to hide his feeling the obvious he gets, and he was stressed out seeing all the dirty glare from the member and the manager.

Doyoung also had developed insomnia, he couldn't sleep because every time he closed his eyes he will see NCT dark future because of his love toward Taeil and because of his reckless action in handling his own feeling. He can see Taeil hating him the rest of his life and it was so painful to wake up with a heavy hearth and tears on his cheek. Doyoung rather not sleep at all.

Doyoung fainted once during his cousin wedding while MC-ing the wedding.

Gongmyung was really worried about Doyoung because he knows the reason behind all the stress, insomnia, fainting and all behind Doyoung problem. He knew it, but he couldn't help Doyoung out, the only person that can help his little brother its either Taeil or Doyoung himself.

Gongmyung tried convincing Doyoung to just confess but Doyoung will end up crying, it was painful to see his own blood crying and you couldn't do anything to help.

The Kim Dongyoung everyone knew is very mature. He know how to control his surrounding, even the hectic one but the Doyoung right in front of Gongmyung now is so weak and immature.

Watching Doyoung on television spending times with Taeil, Gongmyung noticed Doyoung was always trembling whenever he is near Taeil and sometime Doyoung can be a little too clingy. He will hug Taeil from behind,or he just hold Taeil arm tightly out of his control and Gongmyung can sense the vibe around Doyoung, his possessive side is slowly showing..

Every Vlive, every radio show or any random show that NCT guested, Doyoung will always step forward when 'who likes Taeil the most question was being asked.

Rumor has been going around about Doyoung, thirsty for screen time. Doyoung had been receiving hate comment ever since, to only add stress to his already stressful life.

Doyoung decided to-

Leave SM Entertainment.

Staying near Taeil, being eyed constantly every second, faking up his feeling every day..

Doyoung decided to put a stop to everything, he needs to think of himself more. At the end of the day if you're not taking care of your own feeling who will? Staying here while constantly feeling fear and insecure ? No.

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"You've signed 10 years contract with the company and the company won't let you go," Mr. Park, the manager said, looking at Doyoung, coldly.

"Please.."

"What is the reason you want to leave anyway? You drop out of school to be here and if you have problem, share it, we will help you. There's solution of everything!"

"You don't understand, its better for me to quit now."

"Taeil?"

Doyoung took a deep breath, it is because of Taeil he suddenly decided to quit his dream or it is because of his weak ass? Will Doyoung lives his life blaming Taeil for everything when its clearly his fault for falling in love and not brave enough to confess? At least by confessing he knows where his feeling will lead him but crying, hoping, and getting hearth broken for no reason is the only thing Doyoung is doing.