SOTUS: I Fell For A Man?

CHAPTER [5]

Kongpob's POV

Sitting in my car at night not wanting to go home at all, i shut my eyes to relax only to realise that I slept in my car the whole night.

3 loud knocks on my window made me jump in surprise, who I saw on the other side wasn't who I was expecting it to be. My car windows are tinted so no one from outside can know if someone's in here but I guess P'Arthit might know it's my car because he's seen and been in it. I'm scared if I should roll down the windows or not, I could see him waiting at the same time. He almost left and my hand rushed to roll down the windows like they had a mind of its own.

*whhhnnnggg*

He jolted when my face got revealed, he probably was hoping it wasn't me and just mistook another car for mine, although how would he know if someone would be inside.. i sometimes think this guy is strange.

"Kongpob? So it is your car, what are you doing parked here"

Why did he act so normal with me? Do I not have a place in his heart anymore, did I completely ruin this?

"P'Arthit"

He instantly stared at me like he wants to say something, like he wants to yell at me and the weird part is I want him too. I want him to throw all his anger and how much he hates me at my face, i want to know how he feels.

"P'Arthit you're angry right? I made you upset, so its reasonable for you to yell and scream at my face for how I lead you on but then totally cast you out"

He seemed speechless for a second..

"Kongpob, I was mad and I still am, if you want me want to be honest I am also unhappy of how you treated me. Since the moment you found out about my feelings you have acted warm or cold one and the other, I'm trying to hate you but I can't. Just tell me what's going on, why do you change your mind so much. You seem to like me one second then another you start to hate me"

"I-"

He looked at me waiting for an answer "get in the car P'Arthit, or people will just stare"

"is it because.."

i knew what he was going to say so i had to cut him off before he said anything "no i'm not ashamed of anyone seeing us talking to each other, besides no one knows what were talking about or the fact that it could be about our relationship"

I said relationship of which i don't what it is actually..

He nodded and got in to the car beside me in the passenger seat where no one has sat before besides him not that he needs to know that. I look at him as he gets in, noticing my own feelings i can tell why i like him regardless of not liking to be touched or liked by a guy. I feel i would have probably had him by now if i wasn't so messed up. I can't blame anyone but myself for everything that's happened.

"so what do - Kongpob what's wrong?" he changed his sentence, totally freaked out by the fact that i held his hands all of a sudden, who wouldn't be after what has happened recently, especially since i hurt him he would be the one right now wanting to touch me.

"if you're going to apologise that ain't going to fix everything you have done, i know you have a trauma and a past that is probably not known to a lot of people and i don't know what happened either but-"