january 28, 2018
early morning with no moon to be found.minghao
"can i say something really, really quickly?" he looked straight into my eyes, and oh lord i felt like the cupids swirling around my head just got a triple combo. yeah, call me a weirdo, you wouldn't be wrong. for fucks sake, i was drunk with infatuation when i saw jun. i was just a bit better at hiding it.
"uh- sure. what's up" jun smiled once again, looking at his hands.
"thank you. thank you a lot, minghao. hhh, those words aren't enough to describe what i'm feeling right now. it's not even the slightest bit of it," he hid his embarrassment with his awkward laugh, and i simply waited for him to continue.
"thanks for taking me out of that alley, even though the way we met wasn't pleasant, it was nice. it was nice to not be alone again. each day just dragged on and on without any surprises, and i began to lose hope. i began to lose the happy-go-lucky self i used to be when i was left behind. i needed to recharge, and of course, i tried to handle the situation with positive emotions. eventually, i got really bored of living. i got really scared about my future, and if i even will have one. that's when you stepped in. i remember seeing you run into the alley with fear, and i was too afraid to comfort you right then and there. i was afraid that i was going to scare you."
jun took a long breath before he continued. "it's only been barely two days, and i really like being with you. i don't know if its the acts of infatuation, but i really, really like being with you. i really hope you don't get bored of me because i will never get bored of you." he held both of my hands with a cheesy smile.
"i- um.." jun looked at me with such big and hopeful eyes, it hurt so much. after what seemed like hours, his brows fell and his happy face drooped. my heart dropped as i saw his expression change.
"mm, i shouldn't have asked. where were we going again? bagels? your phone said it should be just around the corner." jun softly let go of my hands, letting them fall to the cold, metal bench.
"wait- jun. sorry, that wasn't what i meant. i'm just concerned about cheng. what is he going to do?"
"minghao sweetheart, do you still love him?"
"no-"
"then he's not your problem anymore. if he doesn't understand, i'll make him." jun reached out and lifted my chin, and fuck, he treated me like i was thin glass, so gentle and careful.
"baby, are you about to cry?" jun said, still smiling. he held my left hand with his right and pet my head with his left. he shifted closer to me, pressing a few gentle kisses on my forehead and my cheeks. at this point, i was quietly sobbing. there wasn't a particular reason why, i just felt super soft and loved.
"let's go get bagels first, and then we can head back and we can lay down. i bet you're tired." i nodded and stood up, following jun. surprisingly, he ordered pretty smoothly and the bagels were made quickly, so we were out quite soon. jun held my hand the hold time, relieving my little stresses here and there.
jun smiled the whole time while walking home, knowing that he was holding hands with the one he truly loved. xu minghao.
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huuhuhuhu oOf so thats the end!! ty for ur support and don't be afraid to vote and give constructive criticism ( i don't bite ) an epilogue will follow this chapter very shortly so please give that some support to when it comes out! byebye and have a good day!