Topaz Cherries

Chapter 8

Max's POV
I get to school and wait at the front for Madi. I pace back and forth until she arrives. I see her car pull up and smile.

Madi hops out, waves by to Toni, and walks over to me. She plants a quick kiss on my lips. "Hey baby." She says making me smiles.

I smile. "Hey." I say shyly. Usually I'm not shy, but I'm always nervous around Madi. I always get this feeling in my stomach, butterflies, as people call it.

It's that mixed with my anxiety. I don't like talking about it much, Madi doesn't even know about it.

When I'm around Madi, I'm happy. But my anxiety destroys it. My brain fights with itself. My thoughts are always 'She doesn't really like you. She's just pretend like everyone else. Nobody could ever love you'

Or they are 'I could never be happier. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I love this girl to bits.' Of course I've never actually told her I love her, it's because my anxiety.

Madi puts her hand on my shoulder and looks into my eyes. "Are you okay?" She asks.

I stare back into her eyes and know I can't lie. I shake my head no. "It's a long conversation. Can I come over after school and explain?" I ask.

Madi nods. She hugs me. Max kisses my forehead. "I really care about you. You know you can tell me anything right?" She says.

'She's lying. She doesn't actually care about you. Nobody cares about you.' My thoughts start getting clouded.

I close my eyes and count to five to calm myself down. I open my eyes and Madi looks concerned. I looks down. Madi puts her hand in my cheek.

Madi glances down at my lips, then back to my eyes, before sighing and leaning in. She captures her lips in mine.

I smile into it. "Thank you." I whisper pulling apart. Madi smiles and rubs my arm.

"Always." She says. The bell rings signalling for class to start. We walk inside and sit down.

We sit beside each other, which isn't smart. Graduation from elementary is in a month, then we have a two month break and start high school. That means in 3 months we'll be in high school.

Madi rubs my leg, causing me to smile. Ms.McCoy starts her lesson.

-After School-
I meet up with Madi at the front of the school. I look at her nervously, and she rubs my back. we walk back to her house silently. We get to her house and go up to her room.

Madi sits on her bed and pats beside her for me to sit. I sit down and play with my hands nervously. Madi holds my hand to calm me down. I give her a weak smile.

"So um, I have bad anxiety. It causes me to feel unworthy of anything, or it makes me feel like nobody truly loves or cares about me." I say. Madi looks at me sadly.

"Why didn't you tell me before." She asks. I look up at her and make contact. I break away knowing if I look any longer the tears in my eyes will spill.

"Um, because my anxiety makes me feel like you don't truly care about me." I say. Madi leans forwards and kisses me. I smile.

"Maxy, I love you with my whole heart. And I really hope you can believe me." Madi says. I bite my lip smiling. I lean forward and kiss her.

"I love you too, Mads." I say. Madi leans forwards and captures my lips in hers. I kiss her back.

Alec runs in and jumps between us making us laugh. "Hey Alec." I say ruffling his hair. He squirms away.

I laugh and look up at Madi who smiles widely, causing me to blush, biting my lip and smiling. After awhile my dad, Kevin, picks me up.

"Bye." I say kissing Madi. She kisses back.

She smiles. "I love you." She says, making me smile. "I love you too." I say before leaving

A/N Maxs anxiety is based off my real life anxiety, so please don't say its not realistic or anything when this is what I go through daily. Anyways, that's just a bit of backstory I guess. That's all. BYE