Close As Strangers // Luke Hemmings

April 14th, 2013- 2:33 am

The words on the paper kept replaying in my head, over and over again like a broken record player. Time seemed to slow down so slow that everything just seemed to stop.

Voices in my head kept telling me,

She never loved you

I could hear Debra trying to snap me out but as time slowly started to start once again, I could feel anger boiling inside of me.

Then I lost it.

I ripped up the paper into pieces then broke anything I saw.

Tears were flowing from my face as I began to scream out profanity and sayings such as,

"I THOUGHT SHE FUCKING LOVED ME"

"Lu-" Debra said but I shouts were still coming from my mouth.

"WAS I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR

HER?"

"DID SHE FIND SOMEONE BETTER?"

"I LOVE HER WHY THE FUCK WOULD SHE LEAVE?"

Debra didn't say anything instead she looked at me with sadness in her eyes as I fell down to the floor sobbing and shaking.

She wrapped me into a hug and said,

"Luke she loves you, I promise she'll come back"

But all I could hear were the voices telling me,

Bullshit. If she did love you, she wouldn't have left. You're just a fuck up Luke. You were the one who never loved her. You left her for almost an entire year and you expect her to still love you? You should just stop falling in love. It's a trap.