Thoughts About You...

I Remember: October 2018

I remember the night you messaged me

I remember you posted your Snapchat on your Instagram story

I remember it was 3 am

I remember watching Netflix and feeling my phone vibrate seeing you were typing

I remember my heart started pounding

I remember my hands shaking as I opened the message

I remember smiling when you send a hey with a little keyboard-made smiley face

I remember asking you what you were up to

I remember you saying you were in the van bored

I remember talking about some random stuff for a bit

I remember the exact moment you asked me if it was me

I remember saying yes

I remember getting a notification from Instagram saying you followed me

I remember the confusion of how you found me on Instagram

I remember screenshotting it

I remember then screenshotting the Snapchat notification you sent me next

I remember screenshotting it because I knew I would probably never talk to you again after this

I remember opening the Snapchat

I remember it was you giving me your number saying it would most likely be easier to text

I remember screaming silently

I remember not knowing what to do

I remember it taking 2 minutes for me to text you

I remember it feeling like it took me 30 minutes to text you

I remember talking about family

I remember talking about hair dye

I remember talking about paleness

I remember talking about breakups because we both just went through them

I remember talking about insomnia

I remember not sleeping that night because we were talking

I remember telling you about me coming to see you at a specific show

I remember you not believing me

I remember convincing you that I was

I remember you falling asleep

I remember you texting me apologizing for falling asleep

I remember talking to you non stop for the rest of the day

I remember being at work and pulling my phone out in secret to text you

I remember thinking you were flirting with me

I remember asking my best friend about it

I remember at the time she said you weren't

I remember still thinking you were

I remember all that happened on the first day

The first day we texted I smiled so much

I remember my best friend approving of you only because of how happy you made me

I remember being terrified that this happiness would go away

I remember not caring because I felt SO happy

I wish I stopped it there...

I wish I didn't let myself get so comfortable...

I wish I never snapchatted you...

I wish I never went to your concert...

I wish you never remembered me at that first concert...

I wish you never gave me your number...

I wish I had never snapchatted you...