Petals full of thought

[69]- My love is toxic

I know She doesn't feel the same anymore
But she's still the one i adore..

Are you really sure..?
Can you really handle someone saying you'll constantly walk out the door..?

Honestly I don't know how much more I can handle
Before I burn out like a
Candle.
Why can't I just be numbed i need to find another answer for this love is Killing me like cancer, but where's the cure?

The cure? Don't you know there's no such thing?
You have been caught by this useless fling.. however must it sting.. you have yet stuck it through...
Have you truly thought of you?
Your heart it aches.. for something that is not worth the takes.. she claims lies and hides but...
You only ever gave her tides, your oceans waves of love yet.. she wished for a dove..
What more could you possibly look for..?

I know she doesn't care for me anymore..but i can't leave
I can't fly away , so I have no choice but to stay

My oceans have flooded and intertwined woth her presence , there's nothing I can i do..I know that she never wanted me , for I knew before we even became true

But i got weak
To meak
My soul now bleak

I'm going to love her forever
And no one's going to help
I'm just a broken boy with oceans for a heart and waterfalls fot eyes.
I can't believe I fell for the lies within her desert skies..

And to answer your question
I don't think of me
I am nothing
Just another person added to the problem written world
I am no one..
Other than me..

Haven't you heard the phrase, "there's more fish in the sea?"

There are those better than she,

and you say yourself you are the tide,
find yourself a fish worth the ride..
a beautiful rainbow with love to spare,
that is far better,
than a hazel hare..

You are someone..
You are someone..
You are a someone to me,
A someone more than 'me'
A someone that made my heart happy,
A someone that gave me poetry..
A someone who I love unconditionally..
A person that I only wish to see,
In their greatest state of glee..

So please, won't you let me see..?

I try
I try I swear
But it's hard
When there's a tear
In your smile
The one I fake for more than a mile

I'll try to be happy for you
I know there is others in the world, I know there's more in the sea

But I cant stand the thought of leaving her
I beg and I plea
However I'm stuck

For you I'll do it
I'm glad you talked to me
I'm glad I somehow gave you the art of poetry
The words of true honesty

The happyness in me has vanished
Everything has gone
Other than when I talk to you
I somehow feel whole

Why can't I Break my curse this love of mine brings me nothing but a hearse?

Because, you are not a witch, like the one whose cast her spell,
No matter the plead no matter the yell..
You must break through,
You've heard of glue?

Your torn smile can be repaired, sewn, and cared,

If you can't stand the thought,
Stand the action,
It takes only a small fraction..

If she truly dares, and truly cares,
She would not be pulling hairs..

Pull your mind through, dust off those old webs..
Your time should not be wasted on those poor plebs..

It may be sad for a while..
But I promise you this,
It's worth the rile..

Why can't I just live without the pain
I wish I was as brave as rain
I don't want to let her go
I don't i wanna say goodbye

But if I don't
I'll loose control
I'll burn out like my candle
Like the small light at the end of the tunnel ill die

Can you tell me why
I choose the wrong people
I thought we built a dynasty
That even heaven couldn't shake
I can't take
This anymore

We are all living in a dream
Because this world , this love isn't what it seems

Please I beg of you
Show me the way out.
Be my stars in the night
Restore my sight.

My love is toxic

Burning me with deathly chemicals

From the inside out.

Boiling my ink creating poison

That flows into my heart

I guess brokenness is a work of art.

-a callab with Pseudo-Star who i thank for absolutely everything with in this book and for being there when I needed him. 🥀🥀