Listening to I Gotta Find my Peace of Mind by Lauryn Hill
Finally, a new me. Away from the person who made me the worst I could be. The worst version of me is gone.
Met him at school and believed I've found the one
He gave me comfort and I was no longer alone
We made love: my pleasure.
But momma said, "You don't know anything about love."
I was blinded: living till death do us apart, and our imaginary Caroline and Luis by our side.
It began to unravel. No longer comfortable no longer felt pleasure.
Girl with the daddy issues had fallen into the statistics.
Felt like I can't escape because love kept me in chains.
Trying to see the best in him, yet couldn't find the key.
The key came one year and a half later.
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My key...
Patient, understanding, loving, and caring.
Wanna keep going, but kinda over thinking.
I see a future in us but am I being blinded once more?
I love him, my key. I wanna be right. I hope I'm right. Let's see once I drop out and we share the key to our new home.
