Poems from my mental breakdown's

I can't

Everyone loves me
But I don't know how to return the love,

I don't know how to survive
But It turns out I can't even live,

It turns out I can still feel my heart beating to the clock of life
But I'm frozen in time,

I'm frozen in the storm
But I can't feel the cold,

I can't feel the happiness
But I feel the hate,

I feel the depression
It creeps up in my mind like a forbidden experience,

The emotional suicide creeps up
It creeps up like my worst nightmare,

My worst nightmare
It's my friends wanna die,

We are all waiting for that day
We all hope it comes soon,

We all hope it takes its time
It goes day by day,

Day by day we wait
Nothing happens,

than we're gone
There's no going back.

Please don't take any of this seriously. I just write these poems when I'm having mental breakdown's, but I don't think these thoughts on the norm. also please if this caused you to get triggered or made you feel depressed in anyway, and please don't make regretful life changing decisions based on this poem or any of the other's in this.