Camren one shots

"in the morning i'll be sober and still in love with you"

i didn't meant to break your heart, i was just lonely, and everybody falls apart sometimes

"it's over lauren! get out of my house!" camila yelled, throwing a handful of clothing at the older latina. she had tears running down her face that she couldn't even feel, she didn't feel anything except her seething rage for the woman in front of her.

"camz, baby, please i'm sorry i didn't mean to. i promise i didn't mean to break your heart. i just was so fucking lonely i needed someone and lucy was there for me while you were away and i didn't mean for anything to happen," lauren pleaded, walking closer to the girl and trying to wrap her in a hug. she didn't want this to end this way, she was in love with camila even if she had screwed up a little bit.

"no lauren, no! you don't think i was lonely?! i cried into my pillow every night cause i wanted to be with you so much! but you know what i didn't do? i didn't fuck my best friend just cause i was lonely! you're allowed to be lonely, you're allowed to fall apart, and she's allowed to be there for you but you didn't have to fucking sleep with her!" camila exclaimed, pushing the girl away from her like her touch burned. and it did, it burned with desire and sorrow and want for forgiveness

"camz please, it happened only once and i was drunk and lonely. please give me another chance, please baby please," lauren said, holding back a sob as she got down on her knees to physically beg the love of her life not to throw her out.

"i-i need time lauren. please just-i need time to think about all of this," camila said, taking a few calming breaths as she turned around, not being able to see the older woman without feeling like she was going to spill her lunch.

"okay, yeah of course i can camz. of course. please, just remember how much i love you, and how fucking sorry i am, i love you so so much. please think about that too," lauren said, her tears continuing to run down her face. she didn't know how she possibly had this many tears with how dehydrated she was all the time.

"i will lauren. but please just give me time. go stay with someone or something please, i can't be around you right now," camila said, her voice wavering and sad. she didn't know what she was going to do, all she knew was her fiancé had just broken her heart and she didn't know what she was going to do now.

I know you've found another one, but won't you just hold me tonight

since then camila had figured out that looking at the love of her life shouldn't hurt.  she shouldn't feel her heart break into two everytime she looked at lauren's best friend, and she sure as hell shouldn't have to be worried that everytime she goes on tour she will have to come home and find out that she had been cheated on again.

and lauren couldn't really blame her, and she really didn't.  she knew that she had fucked up, she really did, but that simple fact didn't make her feel any better and make it any easier to forget the younger girl she had been with for years. 

it especially didn't help for lauren to know that camila had found a new person to call her's.  in all honesty she knew she had no right to say anything about her new relationship, she really did know that, but still.  she loved the girl still, they had been together for six years, they were still in high school when they met, they had grown up together.  anyone who has been in love knows that they can't really blame lauren for being stuck on the younger girl.  because as much as she knew that she had no right to feel anything for the younger girl anymore she still held a big part of her and she wasn't ready to give up on that just yet.

and someone probably would've believed she was fine for about four months, that is until she found out that camila had moved onto shawn.  that's what really hurt too, the fact that it was shawn and not someone else, because their whole relationship she had always compared herself to him because she thought he would have been so much better for the younger girl.  and I guess she was right in that aspect.