Being In A Relationship With A Band Member

Goodbye

My heart was racing a million miles a minute. I honestly was scared to turn around but I did

"can I talk to you for a minute? Alone." He said

"yea give me one second!" I say back

"you got this Alyssa" Meleny says

"well wait in the car." Dee says and we go our separate ways. It was just me and Christian outside. We walk over to one another until were about 6 inches apart

"I was wondering when you were going to say something" I say trying to crack a joke. He laughs and just looks at me

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting. I kind of was nervous too about what I wanted to talk about." He says not breaking eye contact with me

"soooo what is it?" I say

"oh um well.." He says scratching the back of his head. I could feel all eyes on us. Even from the car and the bus I could tell that everyone was looking at us. He takes a deep breath

"remember that notebook you gave to me the last time I saw you? Well I read it." He said and I swear I wanted to faint. He actually read it. I didn't know what to say

"the thing that really stuck out to me was when you said that you and me use to talk like what was it 8 years ago?" He said stepping a little bit closer to me.

"uh yea it was 8 years ago and im sorry that you read everything else. I honestly didn't expect you to read it." Was all I could manage to get out

"well do you wanna know something?"

"what?"

"I remember when we did. As soon as I read that it was like everything came back to me."

"really?"

"yea. It did."

"well it took me a while to even remember it was you when I first saw you again."

"when was the first time you saw me?"

"warped tour of this year. I saw you in July and I could sense like I knew you from somewhere. So it took me a while to figure out it was you. Then I saw some of your old keeks and I knew it was you." All he could was smile.

"really?" He said with the chestiest grin

"yea." I smiled back

"well I was so scared to even tell you because I thought that you weren't going to believe me." I continue.

"well I did. I believed every word. Do you really feel that way about me?" He said. All I could do was nod my head.

"but I don't want you thinking that I'm using you for clout or anything like that because that's not the case at all and-" I was cut off my Christian stepping closer to me and kissing me. He pulled me closer with one of his hands on my face. All I could hear was cheering from my car and from the tour bus. I wrapped my arms around his neck to deepen the kiss. We both smiled and pulled away

"why?" I breathed out

"because I felt the same way. Since I looked at you when you were at the last show all I wanted to do was get to know you. I felt something for you that I never felt for anyone before. You were all I thought about in the days after leading to this moment. I know that you and I really just met and started talking but I actually want something with you Alyssa. I really do. I get it if you want to take things slow but-" I cut him off by kissing him again and he just smiled.

"I do want to take things slow because we just met but that doesn't mean anything. I want you and only you. It's been that way for so long." I say as we pulled away. Our foreheads were touching for what seemed like forever when we heard the bus horn honking

"Christian we got to go dude!" Jesse says with the bus door opening

"I guess this is where we part ways." He says with a sad voice

"you'll see me again trust me. You have my Instagram. So when you miss me just text me and we can video chat or something." I say smiling at him. He hugs me tight and I hug back.

"I'll miss you." He says

"I'll miss you too goofball." I say. We finally let go and go our separate ways. Before I got into my car I looked over at the bus and I see him looking back at me. He waved and I waved back. I got in my car and started crying.

"that actually fucking happened." Meleny says to me. All I did was nod my head. We see the bus drive away and we wave at them. They wave back and before we knew it the bus was gone. I sigh because I didn't want him to go. But I knew I have to. We drive away with amazing memories and so many thoughts running through my head.