January
Ylla;
I'm not sure what made me decide to write to you, honestly, I don't know where I found the courage to do so after everything that happens. I found the courage to write yet not to talk to you in person, not after everything that happened. I just couldn't make myself see you or talk to you, it's my fault, right? I know it shouldn't have happened.
I'm pretty sure you're wondering why the hell I'm writing to you, right? When we both know I no longer have the right to do so. But I know for myself I have to do this, I must do this for your sake. Since there are so many questions that need answers, and only I, unfortunately, can provide the explanations that are needed and answers that you truly deserve more than anything in this world. But I don't know where to start, there so many words stuck at the edge of my tongue, stories untold that may never be heard by your ears.
I think I should start from the beginning, the very beginning that causes a drastic change in both of our lives.
It happened years ago. To be exact, 13 years ago back when we both were just starting the new chapter of our lives, college. I always remember it, and I always feels like it just happened yesterday. Funny right? But I remember it all, like a moment that's been captured on photographs to be preserved for years to come. Maybe that was the point right? To be preserved, so that one day I can finally tell and show you.
It was that time when I first caught glimpses of you at the entrance door of our college building, you sort of stand out in the group of freshmen you were with. Remember? There was and always something about you that make you to naturally stand out wherever you are, and maybe that's the reason why I feel like I've been struck by lightning that moment I saw you. At that moment I knew from deep inside me that you're the one meant for me, cliche right? But it feels like you're the one at the end of my red thread in this lifetime. Funny right? I don't even know you back then, and yet I already felt that my fate is intertwined with yours.
Who even thinks like that? Well, I guess I do. But I just really knew you will be special to me then, and still is over this past years, even after that unthinkable event.
Something about you that day changes a part of me, making me realize you're something I couldn't reach that time, and even now. But I still started looking forward on the day I could finally meet you and get to know you. And in the first 2 months of the school year, I always tried my best to at least caught a glimpse of you just to make my day complete.
Yours truly,
M.
P.S I always like it when your hair is done in a simple fishtail. And I hope and pray, this letter that I wrote didn't scare the light out of you.
