Not a him (Editing)

Chapter 8

Growls erupted around the room.

I let out a louder, stronger snarl, making them whimper.

"You don't know what your saying, it's just your grief and anger talking," Nash reached out but I moved away.

"First you defined the guy who sexually harassed me, then your pack killed my pride," anger filled him when he heard what Mike did to me but was replaced with pain and sorrow at my next words.

"I, Jozef Johnson, reject you, Nash Smith, as my mate."

He doubled over in pain, tears running down his face.

I wanted to comfort him and tell him I'm sorry, but instead I ran out the house with super speed.

I shifted into my cat, shredding my close in the process.

letting the screams of my name drift away

Nash' P.O.V.(hehe)

"I, Jozef Johnson, reject you, Nash Smith, as my mate."

Pain struck me, making me double over in pain.

She rejected me.

And its my fault. If my dad had taken the former alphas position before the attack, my mom would be alive and my mate wouldn't have rejected.

she ran off into the woods not looking back.

Ever word she said replayed in my head.

"First you defined the guy who sexually harassed, then-"

Wait, what did Mike do.

anger started to bubble up in me as i realized what he had did to MY mate.

"MIKE!"

Mike came from out the crowed knowing what was coming. He has hell to pay.

I walked up to him and griped his neck, lefting him off the ground.

"Why the hell did you touch my mate.'

"I was only 16 I didnt now who she was and that she would our Luna," he depertetly tried to breath, but i tightend my fist around his neck.

"She was only 14 you sick fucking bastard."

"Son you need to calm down"

"No! I can't calm down! Because of him and that god damn alpha I dont have a MATE," whimpers came from around the room, from the harshness in my voice.

A loud crack came from Mikes jaw when my fist made contact with his face.

Throwing him to the floor, I started beating him to a pulp.

Well, close to a pulp. My dad and Mike's dad pulled me off of him.

"You need to calm down before you end up killing someone," at this point I didn't care.

Most of the people agreed to attack her pride, I should kill them.

"Ever single one of you will pay for hurting her," my wolf spoke for me.

I stomped away, pulling myself from my dad and Mike's dad's grip.

All that was in my head was her.

My mate.

I need her now, she can't leave my like this. I can't forget about her, I miss her.

Nothing will change what I feel for her.

I love her so much.

I can't take it any more. I'm nothing without her.

I can't be alive without her.

I made my way to the shooting rang where we kept all the firearms.

Finally there I open a metal box on the wall where we kept the wolfs bane.

I injected myself with some and slid to the floor, my back against the wall.

I started to feel dizzy and loose all control of my muscles.

I pray this will take my mind off of her.

If I can't get her out of my head, I'm sure to die.

But I can't help but to think about how soft her lips are when they're on mine. How her hair is as white as snow on a beautiful mountain. And her eyes are so beautiful. I could stare into them all day if I could...

Wait... god dammit.

It just made it worse.

I stabbed my leg with another syringe and put more in me.

I felt weird and hot on the inside. That when I felt my whole insides burn. I had realized I had put to much in my system too late.

I screamed out in agony, as my blood running through my veins burned me.

Well at least I can't feel the pain of her rejection.

I welcomed the darkness, hopping it will take the pain I was feeling for her.

Please take it away.

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Hey sorry for the late post. been kind of distracted with school and stuff

And the song for this chapter is.... Habits by tove lo.

It's an amazing song and you should hear it.

Enjoy