Confessions of the teenage paradox

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    If God's such a holy being why would he want all of mankind to bow at his feet and praise him. If he's as ethereal as proscribed why would he punish people for not immediately falling at the feet of a being you can't see, blind trust isn't something humans have been a fan of. He created Adam and Eve and watched the eat the apple, the one thing they were told not to do but basic human nature told them different. Since god created the angels and humans was it so he could feel less lonely, creating the earth and heaven so he didn't have to spend eternity alone. Sounds selfish to bring so many into creation to live painful lives just so he didn't have to dwell in his alone. What about god how did he come into existence, does he have a god telling him to do this. And what about Lucifer God's former favourite banished from the sanctuary for what, questioning gods reasoning to create more people, more things. If god already had all the angels he could want to live with him in undeniable gratitude and love for the holy being. Did he need more, did he want the blind trust from creations no being able to see what they believed in but trusting it was there. Now put that way he sounds selfish, greedy for power but what if he rlly did just want to use the gift he had to bring life into the works he created. Maybe he just wanted to share it with something els. Creating humans to watch them live the beauty in life unknown to the greed and desire humans have. I think if god is real and as holy and truly pure as were told to believe that he's disappointed with how humanity has become cruel making him question if he did the right thing creating something that could be so vile, worse than any monster he could create. God knew monsters would be vicious and cold blooded as they were meant to be killing without a second thought. But that's why humans are worse, created to bring life to the planet but turned into monsters with no help at all. Humans are worse than monsters tho, monsters were created to kill without a second thought humans will become your friend first just to torcher the life then have it ripped away from the person without so much as a reason. I ain't religious or anything and it's only 1am but God's either disappointed in what we've become or angry at his creations who don't worship him blindly making him not as great as were told.