The internship - Shawn Mendes

He is lying

Today it was Sunday. Shawn had not written anything more to me. As I was thinking about writing something to him my phone started to beep. I quickly checked where the notice came from and burst into a smile.

Shawn 10:32
I am in Denmark right now, if you are wondering. I am sorry for not writing to you, I have feelings of guilt but I have a lot of work. I hope you are fine. I want to text you as much as I can now when I am in Europe, because of the time zone in America...

I smiled like an idiot. 

Ella, 10:34
It is okay, I missed you, but your job is more important.

Shawn, 10:35
You are more important than my job.

Ella, 10:37
You are lying.

Shawn, 10:38
Why would I do that? You are important, there are not many people like you. I got it proved last Thursday.

I sat staring at the message forever. Did he just write that? Why is he so kind to me? Doesn't he has other girls to write with, I mean, he is famous and good looking, he can write with any celebrity girl he wants. Why me? Sure, I might have made a good impression on him when I was kind and helpful toward him, but I do not have everything. I do not have everything that other girls have. I am not famous, not handsome, do not have the dream body and not many friends. I can not continue writing with him, I am just wasting his time. 

Shawn, 10:42
Are you there?

I locked my phone and put it next to me in the bed with the screen down. Everything that goes around in my head is about Shawn. He has his career and tour to think about, not me. 

~ Next day ~

It was seven in the morning I would go to school in an hour. I was lying in bed and checked my Instagram. Yesterday, I got four messages from Shawn that I haven't read yet. I sighed and went into the messaging app before I clicked into our conversation.

Shawn, 22:45
Please answer me, did I say something wrong?

Shawn, 23:02
Please, I want to text you, I miss you.

Shawn, 00:21
It isn't fun anymore, I care about you.

He's so sweet, but I can't continue writing with him. I'm just disturbing his focus on his tour.

Shawn, 06:40
I woke up now because I can't stop thinking about you, please write something so I know you are alive.

The school's over for today and I was on the subway home with Ida. I was quiet, she'd tried to get in touch with me all day, but I'd just ignored her.

''Can you please talk to me, what's happened?'' I didn't answer her. ''It's not fun anymore!''

''Shawn and I have written to each other,'' I mutter.

''WHAT?! Is it true? Why are you not happy?'' She asks and looks at me strangely.

''He wrote that he misses me and that I am more important than his job and career. He is lying to me.'' I say and look down at my grey sneakers.

''Do you really think he would lie about something like that to you, you are the most wonderful person he can meet.'' She says and smiles at me. I smiled back.

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I was sitting in my bed with my phone in my hand. I have to write something to Shawn.

Ella, 15:46
Sorry, my mobile charger was broken, but I have bought a new one now.