Thoughts swirling through my head
Trying to hold onto the words that you said
That you would always be there
That you would always care
This darkness is threatening to swallow me whole
But with you I can take control
Holding on the the last bit of strength I have
The strength you gave me
Constantly fighting my inner thoughts
Trying to remember the things you taught
I want to actually try this time
I want to take what I want in life
But with this constant battle inside
It's hard to do anything but cry
I'm so unhappy and it's my fault
Because I can't control my shortcomings and faults
Forever wanting to run away
Find a safe place for me to stay
But sadly what I'm running away from
Is myself
No matter how hard I try
To find love and motivation
It never lasts longer than a minute
A split second and it's gone
Can somebody tell me what I'm doing wrong?
Why am I not functioning properly?
I feel like a puppet
Who's strings have been cut
Useless and broken
Will I ever be useful and fixed?
