Highway Don't Care

(12) Why Were You Scared?

A few nights after they got home they had Weston laying in between them in their bed. Bucky's finger was being held in Weston's tiny hand. "Makayla.." he asked

"Yeah baby." she said as she looked over at him. 

"Why were you so adamant about pushing me away in the beginning? I mean I know I was a butt hole and all but..you seem like you were mad about something." he said 

She chewed inside of her lip and said "Buck you don't remember do you?' 

"Baby I play football and basketball and baseball. I've had quite a few concussions and a wrecked my first truck which knocked me out for 3 days shortly after I got my license my memory isn't the best." he said

She looked down and said "Buck when we were at Clint's 14th birthday party they played the game truth or dare. You were dared to take me into the closet to make out with me but they didn't say for how long and us making out lead you to have a hard on. And um you got mad cause I wanted out of the closet and you said "Are you seriously going to give me blue balls. I had no idea what that meant so I asked you and you explained it to me. So I um you took my virginity you said it was your first time too." 

"Makayla.. oh god I am so sorry. I um I feel like such an idiot now." he said then he looked at her and said "Baby your face is telling me that there is more to the story." 

She wiped tears and said "Because I got ..I um I got pregnant and miscarried. When I came to tell you I found you with Ashley. You didn't have a condom and said the same thing you said that night in the truck. That's when my parents split up cause my mom put me on birth control and my dad was pissed at me and my mom for keeping it from him that I had gotten pregnant I was 12 weeks." 

Bucky wiped tears then he whispered "Baby I am so sorry oh my god.. I really am fucked up. Now everything makes sense as to why you were so scared and kept pushing me away. And why you got so upset after you found out you were pregnant." 

"You aren't fucked up Bucky. We were 14 years old and didn't now any better. It was my fault I wanted to believe what you said was true so I kept cheering and doing gymnastics. I caused the miscarriage when I shouldn't of been doing anything I was rushed to the ER when I started to bleed during practice all the girls thought it was my period and that's what I let them believe cause nobody knew we had sex in that closet." Makayla said 

He looked down and said "Not even your two best friends know." 

"Not even them know. That's why I didn't want to go to the parties and have anything to do with you in the beginning cause I was scared that I was just going to get my heartbroken again. You were my first kiss my first sexual experience and it hurt to see you kissing Ashley. I never slept with anyone else or dated anyone else after that. I gave in cause I kept hearing you are seriously going to give me blue balls in my head." she said 

"And now." he said 

"And now I love you Bucky. I got what I didn't get before I get a relationship with you and it feels good." she said 

He kissed her with tongue and said "Yes it does baby. And I love you too."