diary → jikook

october 7th

jungkook silently unlocked jimins front door with the key jimin had given him.

he was planning on surprising jimin.

no special reason, he just felt like it.

so he sneaked in, a bag of sushi in his right hand.

he quietly went upstairs.

the house was very silent, and jungkook wondered if he was even home.

so he went to jimins bedroom door, pushed it open and yelled, "SURPRISEEE!"

jimin jumped. his hands went to cover his face. "you scared me!" he said, voice shaky. he let out a shaky laugh before going to jungkook.

jungkook thought he went to get a kiss, but jimin went right past him and to the bathroom where he locked the door.

"jimin? are you alright?" he asked. he'd never seen jimin behave like this.

and that's when it hit him. he'd never seen jimin cry. jimin was crying.

it might not have been the biggest deal in some people's eyes. but jungkook has known jimin for almost a year now, and he's never seen him cry.

and once again, it all hit him at once.

jimin never cried.
he was always so happy for jungkook.
he never seemed down.
he was hiding.

jungkooks chest was tightening.

he had been so busy crying with jimin by his side, comforting him, that he never thought about jimin as someone who'd ever cry.

he'd been so busy with his own depression.

"JIMIN, PLEASE OPEN."

his voice was pure panic, shaking whilst he took deep breaths.

the lock clicked and the door opened.

"kookie? why are you crying? oh my god are you alright?" jimin asked, immediately embracing jungkook.

jungkook noticed jimins red eyes, although he had tried to cover the red swell around it.

jungkook pulled away. "j-jimin." he hiccuped, cupping jimins face in his hands. jimin immediately tried to look away, but jungkook held his face.

"jimin. p-please tell my why you were crying." he whispered, trying to stop himself from crying. this wasn't about him.

jimin was fucked. "i was watching a sad movie." he said, but they both knew he was lying.

"jimin."

"jungkook."

"please stop lying. tell me the truth."

"i already told you."

"fine, jimin if you're gonna be this way i'm leaving." jungkook suddenly snapped, letting go of jimins face.

"wait, jungkook! please!"

"no, jimin. you never do anything but hide your emotions. all you ever show me is love and affection. i want to see your human side. and until you're ready to show me that, i think i should leave. come back to me when you're ready to be yourself around me."

jungkook smacked the front door in jimins face. he stood outside, frozen in his spot.

seconds later jungkook heard a sound piercing his ears. jimin screamed.

and suddenly he heard a lot of sobbing. a lot. sobbing, more screaming, and glass shattering.

things went quiet after that.

jungkook was about to leave the front door, when he heard a scream.

"FUCK THIS LIFE."

that was when jungkook knew he couldn't leave.