Behind The Mask

chapter 4 : nightmares.

Where am I?

I don't remember coming back here. Tears burn at the back of my eyes but I refuse to let them out. I will fight.

The floor is cold and I'm barefoot.I walk out of the room that used to be mine. I look around, everything is quiet and dark. 

I know he's here and I will kill him. This time for real.

I feel a presence behind me and I feel fifteen again. weak, scared, and vulnerable.

That's not me. 

I turn around as fast as I could and feel his hands on my mouth.

"Shhhh we don't wanna wake up anyone do we?" I try to scream or fight but I'm so still. It's like I have no control over my body anymore. I look into his eyes and feel every emotion I've been suppressing for years now.

"He smiles. And not the friendly smile, but the one he does before doing something horrible.

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"Fuck..." I woke up breathless and sweaty. That my t-shirt stuck to my body.

I'm really sick of those nightmares. They've been more frequent lately and I don't know what to do about them. What the hell is wrong with me. I look at the time it's 3 am. Fucking hell. I woke up at 3 am on a Sunday.

I couldn't really sleep again so I decided to just stay in bed and listen to music for hours, until the sun rises.

I convince myself that the weak girl from the nightmare is not me anymore;  I'm strong and not vulnerable. I'm strong. I'm strong. I'm strong.

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Wednesday

My first day back. I check myself out in the mirror, I look exhausted.  I'm wearing jeans and a tank top. I add extra concealer  to cover my eyebags and add eyeliner so it would decrease the puffiness of my eyes. Stupid nightmares. I look like shit.

I enter the school confidently, and as I thought everyone was staring at me. The stares were accompanied by whispers, I couldn't really makeup what they were saying and I Don't really give a shit.

I walk to my locker throw everything inside and hope I don't see Hunter. After the club incident he seems really... well let's say he isn't happy.

"Hey." Said a voice from behind me.

"Hi. How are you?" Thank god it was just the girl that helped me and I can't  remember her name god dammit.

"I'm great. How is your wrist?" She joked.

"Thirsty for more ." She laughed again.

"Speaking of the devil.." her eyes darted to something behind me.

I look to see what caught her attention. And of course who else would it be. Satan, with a demon I guess. He has a cheerleader wrapped around him like how a koala is wrapped around trees. That makes me laugh out loud and he looks at me and then scowls. I smile sweetly and wave.

Then he looked at the girl and stood in the middle of their way and kissed her. I gag and turn back to put the rest of my stuff in the locker.

"Stop sucking face Haley. That's gross." I Smirk at the girl. 

"Fuck off Sarah." He laughed. Are they friends? And her name is Sarah. Thank you Hunter.

Sarah must've noticed my confusion because she then said.