(A/N: I just found this in my notes from 21st of may (which is the anniversary or my grans death), and I was apparently quite sad. I really don't know what this was, as I said I just found it and I just read through it, and I'm confused at what's going on)
Vik's P.O.V
I picked Tobi up from his apartment. We were going to record with the sidemen.
We driving and talking happily when.....
CRASH!
A lorry....
It hit the side of the car. Tobi's side.
His body was limp. He clothes were soaked with blood. I was in pain but I didn't care. I wanted Tobi to be alright.
I quickly called the ambulance, using my left arm, as my right arm really hurt.
About 5 minutes later the ambulance crew arrived. They pulled to dented door off. And I saw just how bad Tobi looked. One of his legs...... No.... I can't....
We were both taken to hospital. Tobi was still breathing. Just....
I had broken my arm. But I still didn't care about myself. I wanted Tobi to be alright. The guys came. But they didn't care about me, they only cared about Tobi.
A few hours later..... Tobi was pronounced dead. I couldn't bare it. I always thought it was my fault. And so did the guys. They all blamed me. They wouldn't record with me. They wouldn't talk to me.
So now here I am. Sat in my bedroom crying. My arm still in its cast, still in the sling. I promised myself that I wouldn't self harm. Not that the guys will care if I do it anyway. When Tobi died, my friendship with them died.
Sometimes I get angry. I get annoyed with the way the guys treat me. But I would never do anything to them. I would just scream and shout at my things until my anger left me.
Simon's P.O.V
It's been a week since Tobi died. In that time none of us have spoken to Vik. Why should we? He was driving the car that Tobi was killed in.
I was walking down the stairs, just to get a drink, when I heard shouting from Vik's room.
"IT WASN'T MY FAULT!!!! THEY NEVER ASKED THE FULL STORY!!! A LORRY DROVE INTO THE SIDE OF THE CAR!!!! I DID NOTHING WRONG!!!!" The shouts slowly became sobs, until I heard full on crying.
I tried to open the door, but it was locked.
"Vik? Open up." I spoke calmly.
"Fuck off Simon! You don't care!" Vik yelled back.
"I just want to know what happened, How Tobi died?" I lied. I felt bad for him, but after this past week, I knew that this would be the only way to get him to talk to me.
I heard footsteps coming towards the door. It slowly opened, and Vik was revealed. Tear stained face, bloodshot eyes.
I pulled him into a hug, being careful of his arm. I felt so guilty. Why did I not think that Tobi dying affects him as much as it affects the rest of us? Mabye even more. He saw Tobi's body. I would be broken if I saw that.
I closed the door with my foot. Me and Vik moved over to his bed.
"A L-lorry drove into the car. It was their fault. They pulled out of a road without looking. I tried to tell you, but none of you listened to me." Vik sobbed.
"I-I-I-I I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. We should've asked. I guess the moment just got to us. Especially Josh." I spoke quickly.
"Simon! Where are you!?" Josh's voice came from the hallway.
"I'm in Vik's room!" I shouted back.
"Can I borrow...." Josh stopped. He had just got to the door at this point, and he was looking towards Vik.
A look of realisation flooded his face, and we quickly replaced by guilt. He knew. He probably felt the same way I did.
"Oh no....." he trailed off. "Vik I'm so sorry.... I-I-I-I I wasn't thinking..... it was just Tobi and..... and..... please forgive me." Josh suddenly burst out.
I knew that the sight of Vik crying made him realise.
"Josh..... come here." Vik spoke through his sobs.
Josh immediately rushed over and we had a group hug, both me and Josh being careful of Vik's arm.
(A/N: what just happened. I have no clue what this is)
