Cause it blows

Chapter 6

Y/Ns point of view

"So are you coming home tonight?" Lauren asked me as we sat on the sofa. Dinah and Camila were in the backyard talking.

"I don't know"

"Dads been going crazy. He really shouldn't be allowed to drink. That all he does and then he gets angry and takes it out on us" Lauren said. That was the reason at least one of us had to come home. If we weren't there he would put his hand on our mom and then I would've had to beat his ass.

"Yeah, I'll come home tonight. You can go out" I said and she didn't say anything. We stood quiet for a little before she said something.

"I'm not going out tonight" she paused. "I'm leaving"

"What? You just said you weren't going out tonight" I laughed at Lauren but I stopped once I noticed that she wasn't laughing.

"No Y/N I'm leaving. I'm moving and I'm not coming back"she said and I looked at her with wide eyes. Leaving?! Not coming back!?

"Lauren you can't fucking do this to me. Your just gonna get up and leave and leave me stuck in this mess!?" I said and she just looked at her feet. "What if something happens to me? Then what? You just not gonna be there to help fix anything"

"You can come with me- I fucking can't Lauren! Then who's gonna take care of mom!? Your a fucking idiot, all you think about it yourself!" I yelled at her and stormed away.

Why the hell would she do this. She's so fucking selfish! She knows everything will go downhill when she leaves but that bitch chooses to ignore it.

I sat on Camila's bed and tried to calm myself down. Things were already hard and her leaving is just making them harder. I wanted to scream. I wanted to punch someone. Maybe even kick her in her face.

"Y/N?" I heard Camila said as she walked in slowly. I can't.

I turned around to face her and grabbed her waist. I crashed our lips together and slammed her against the wall. I shoved my tongue in her mouth making her moan.

What the hell am I doing!?

I pulled away and crouched down. Why can't I just get my shit together. I'm always messing with someone.

"No no don't cry. I'll help you" she said and I looked up at her. Help me? With what?

"Help me?"

"Take care of your mom. I'm sorry Y/N but Lauren is still leaving. I heard you the argument and I even tried talking to her but she wouldn't listen" she told me and I just laid on the floor.

"I'm sorry Y/N, let me make you feel better" she said as she grabbed my hand and led me to her bed.

I laid my head on her stomach and she played with my hair. I took a deep breath and just looked around.

" "better" is not a permanent feeling mila" I said and she hummed. "Just temporary"

"Well then let me temporarily make you feel better" she said making us both giggle. "I really don't want you to leave"

"Yeah, and now I'm gonna be bored because my best friend/ sister is leaving" I said and she kept playing with my hair.

"Y/N did you mean what you said earlier?" She said and I looked at her confused.

"It depends" I said and she laughed. "What did I say?"

"That you thought I was perfect?" She said and I smiled at the memory.

"Well there's no such thing as perfect" I said. "I know" she said.

"There's no such thing as perfect. Your just what I prefer. Your everything i want" I said and I felt her chest rise and drop. "Can I take you out one day?"