You never really see me

💫Chapter 1💫

❤💛💚💙💜Bambi❤💛💚💙💜

I can't help but feel like I would rather die than spend one more minute here. It is not the wait that is bothering me, it's the woman who is just staring at her crying baby like she doesn't know what to do anymore, the old creepy guy sitting in the corner playing his harmonica horribly might I add, the teenage girl in front of me that keeps twitching like she has something crawling up her neck and the guy who keeps looking at everyone like he's trying to see who's an easy target to steel from.

Is my life awesome or what? Note the sarcasm.
It's been approximately 6 hours that I have been sitting on this train.
Going to wherever life may take me. Starting a new life, a new chapter in my life. One where I can choose to be who I want. Problem is where do I start.

I don't really have anyone to take care of me, but it's cool. I'm used to it since I have practically had to raise myself. I actually know nothing about my family whether or not they are alive, looking for me - which I highly doubt- and wondering where I am, living their life wonderfully without a care on the word or maybe even dead.

A couple of more hours passed and I finally decide that maybe I should stop my travel here. I got off the train in the train station and made my way through the crowd bumping, shoving , elbowing and clawing my way through the sea of people.

By the time I made it out and into the streets I was breathing heavily and I could literally feel the sweat running down from my under arms.

Talk about unwanted intimacy, can you imagine the germs running all over our body girl! Maybe we should just bleach everything from head to toe, what do you say?

"Look Puffy! I know that we may have every existing germ there is in this world on our body right now but I don't think bleaching will be good, I mean we would look more pale than Michael Jackson's body. No offense. And besides I do not think that blonde hair would look good for us I mean have you seen this perfectly thick black hair?" I said to the bad ass girl in my head as I made my way heading to the little coffee shop across the street.

No blonde is a hell naw boo. So what's the plan now I mean. We don't have a place to stay...you better come up with something babe.

"Yeah I'm handling it Puffy just wait and see" I said as I entered the coffee shop and took a seat at the table farthest away from everyone not wanting to make them cringe at my body odor.

Wait! The fuck Bambi? We barely have enough to get in a motel now you wanna drain us to die in the streets?

"No that's not what I'm doing, and don't you dare swear at me because I'm here for a job" I spoke into my phone so that people won't think that I'm talking to myself that would be weird.

Oh okay cool.

"Yeah now shut up so I can concentrate" I said looking at my menu for the cheapest beverage. Deciding on what I wanted I signaled to the waitress to come take my order.

She came wearing some black ripped jeans, vans shoes and a orange shirt with the shops name on it with a drawing of a teacup filled with an expression and an apron tied around her waist.

"Hello welcome to Hottee Coffee what may I get for you today?" She asked in cheerful tone making me smile at her happy mood.

Man is it just me or is she too much of a happy pappy. Ugh makes me want to just throw up right inside of her pink pu-

"I would like a strong black coffee please" I said cutting Puffy off before she could finish her inappropriate sentence.

"Sure coming right up" she beamed walking back to the counter and preparing my order.

For the love of Dogs! She really needs to tone that happiness down a notch I mean seriously! And what's up with you cutting me off little miss proper that's was not cool at all. How about you let me lead so that I can pull PAPPY down from her high horse huh?

"What no! You know what happened last time I don't think that I could ever trust you again remember what you told me to do last time? And besides what if something goes wrong Puffy you have never taken over our body before what if something bad happens? I won't be able to stop you because you'd have to be willing to give me our body back and knowing you I don't think you would" I whisper yelled into my phone again to keep as much attention from me as possible.

Yeah but i -

I pushed her into the back of my mind and finally started to focus on my surroundings. Despite the fact that this coffee shop may be one of the biggest ones I have ever seen i could say that it looked pretty packed and there were thirty one tables in total which meant that I was one of the three people in this whole shop who were sitting alone. One of them who was a male in a business suit looked like he was waiting for someone who was late because he kept checking his watch and texting on his cellphone. The other person was a woman who had huge purple bags under her eyes and she looked distant not once touching her still full cup which looked cold from the lack of steam coming from it so I'm guessing she's been her for a while and the outline of her marriage ring on her bare left ring finger tells me that she's going through a rough divorce. The last person was a dude, a teenage boy if you wanna say who had this sad look on his face and slightly swollen red eyes which might be that he's either sick, high or got dumped but from the way he keeps shaking his head in disbelief and talking quietly to himself repeating someone's name countless times I'm going to go with dumped.

I sighed and relaxed more into my seat. The waitress came and gave me my coffee which I thanked her for before she returned to her place behind the coubter. I took my time enjoying my bitter black sugarless coffee, loving the way it gave me goosebumps every time I took a sip. I feel like I'm forgetting something... PUFFY right. I really do love her she has gotten me into a lot of messed up things and she can be a handful but I still love her. She has been with me for so long, ever since when I was eight I was living in the unused dumpster at the back of the strip club in London. Sometimes I wonder how she'd look like if she had her own body and was her own person.

She says that she see's herself as someone with dark brown hair, brown eyes, cute round shaped face, small nose, and heart plump lips. A slim framed body, almost pale in complexion and a hard six pack.

Unlike me I have thick pitch black, hair, a heart shape face, blue eyes, hourglass shaped body, caramel skin tone and a normal flat tummy.

I truly don't even know if my real name is Bambi because that's the name that Puffy gave me but I like it.
I truly wish that she could have her own life sometimes I think about giving her that chance to take over but truth be told I'm scared I mean I hardly even know if it's possible she says it's possible but then again it would be weird for me sitting back and letting things play out without my control.

"Puffy do you think I made the right choice leaving London? I mean aren't you going to miss it?" I asked her plugging my earphones in.

Girl are you serious? Hell naw I'm not going to miss that place nobody liked us there. They were all so fucking uptight about every little thing and to top it all off they thought that you are crazy! So no I won't miss it not even a little but not even at all.

"Yeah I guess you're right I mean we weren't that bad, sure we did break into the police station but it was to get back our packet of green cotton candy" I huffed thinking about how much energy it took to do all that without being caught.

Hahah I still don't get why you call weed 'green cotton candy' Bambi said and laughed.

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Thank you so much for choosing my book I hope you all enjoyed it.
And I apologise for making it so short.
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G~K♡