i guess i'm just here because i'm waiting for something good to happen. i don't really want to be, but here i am – hoping that things will get better even though it probably won't. it never will. i've been waiting years and at this point i don't know why i haven't given up already.
i'm severely depressed every hour of the day even if people see me laughing and smiling. they think i'm alright because i play everything off as a joke but i'm not. i'm far from alright. i don't want to do this anymore.
i have about 5 people that might care about me. actually wait – they probably don't. i'm just telling myself that because i want to be needed. i want to be loved. it wouldn't matter that much, wouldn't it?
no one cares. not one person.
i'm tired. my chest aches. my throat has a lump.
i'm so tired.
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just peachy ❁ s/mb
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