Unloved |z.m|

Breakdown

Allison's POV:

STAY AWAY I scream at the top of my lungs, making my own throat strain.

I don't need him! I don't need this I repeat in my head over and over again in my head.

He starts to come closer as I crouch farther down in the corner. Tears falling down my cheek, mascara leaving dark black lines I'm sure.

Wow how pathetic I must seem....or psychotic. He has no idea why I'm lashing out like this after an intense make out session.

The reality of the matter is I can't fall in love. And if I don't stop this now I will.

I've made a promise with myself to never fall in love because I just end up getting hurt. Which leads to being even more broken.

How broken can a person get before there up fixable. I have made sure never to find out.

That is why I'm reacting in this way. I guess it's a defense mechanism.

I snap back into reality when I feel Jace's has on my cheek. I squirm under his touch. There is an uneasy look in his eye that almost looks like fear and heartbreak.

It's okay I hear Jace say, I love you he says in a desperate tone in an attempt for me to calm down.

The tears slowly stop and Jace glides his finger up and down in a soothing way.

He's used to my lashing outs by now. It happens about once every two weeks.

Which is another reason for my lash outs.

How could he love someone like me. That's is so insecure about herself that doesn't even believe her own boyfriend loves her.

I always feel like its some sort of joke for him to be dating me. Starting football player with amazing looks dating an insecure freak like myself just doesn't add up.

I know he loves me don't get me wrong. But it's just times like these where I think too much and this happens.

Jace's POV:

I wish she could see herself for the way she truly is. She is breathtakingly gorges. She's all I want and all I need.

I have to find a way for her to know she's the most important thing in my life.

Alli I say, your my everything. You have to know that. I love you with all I have.

I continue to rub her cheek. I can tell she's going to fall asleep soon. Her eyes are fluttering in the most adorable way. If only she could see herself the way I do.

She eventually falls asleep. This is how it goes every time, it's almost like routine. She can't help it and I know, but I don't want there to be another next time. What it one day there is no next time.

What if she can't take it anymore and she's done for good. I can't live without her. I wish she could understand that.

I sit her up carefully to not wake her. I lay her on the bed next to me. Her hair laying on my shoulder.

She looks so beautiful, so innocent. As if she has no worry in the world.

I watch the way her chest rises and fall in a rhythm.

I admire the way her face will scrunch up like she's in deep thought.

I just sit and watch her until I fall asleep as well. Next to the most beautiful girl in the world.

Okay so ik that wasn't very good and it was short. Ugh I'm horrible at first chapters of stories. Anyway I hope you enjoys the story.

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Xoxoxox the author Natalie