Unloved |z.m|

Keeping distance

Allison's POV
It's been three days since my so called "breakdown".
It's to hard to face him. Especially when I know the next time I do I have to end it.

I can't let things go on like this. It's not fair to Jace that I cannot give him the amount of love he possesses for me.

I want to I really do. It's just that my past haunts me. So much that each day is a struggle.

But I can't tell him of my past, I can never fully open myself to him.

I just can't.

Jace's POV

Allison has me worried sick. So much my heart aches in pain at the thought of loosing her...again.

I've called, texted, left voice mails and even went to her dorm room. She didn't answer the door but I know she was there.

I decided to try again to today.

I wish she would just let me in. I love her, she's made me feel a love for her I've never felt for any other. She's my world and I want to be hers.

Allison's POV

I heard a knock at the door around 5:30.

It's Jace no doubt about it.
I have to let him in, I at least owe that to him.

I opened the door and could see the relieved look within his bright blue eyes.

I hate myself for doing this to someone who would never hurt a single soul, while I'm steady hurting his.

If only I could change, become the person he deserves to be with.

He thinks I'm the one but Jace deserves someone who can love him unconditionally. Someone unlike me.

Jace we should talk about some things....

Jace's POV
I know what's coming. This talk has happened before.

It's not fair what I'm doing to you. She says with a blank face.

Her words feel as though they're at a battle with my insides.

No Allison please. I'll do anything to keep you with me. I cannot lose you. You're my everything.

Allison POV

Jace we cannot keep going down this road.

I saw an anger in his eyes I've never seen before and it was frightening.

No Allison, No! Jace replied

You don't even seem to care! Your face shows no emotion. Why?

Jace was screaming at this point.

I let him get out his rage without any arguing. He had a right to be mad.

I ruined him. He loved me with all his heart and I crushed him.

Jace's POV

YOU KNOW WHAT ALLISON I'LL BE PERFECTLY FINE WITHOUT YOU!

You think I'll break without you. Well I can promise you I won't. I love you, you don't love me and I guess that's the way it will have to be.

The look of nothingness on her face reassured my decision.

I turned toward the doors slammed it shut and walked out of Allison's life forever.

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