Samantha Green

Sam ...

Hi , my name is Sam . I suffer from stage 5 depression . As you already know from my first suicide attempt story . Well , as I said ,"I was in a mental hospital for three years ." Technically I was only in for one ,but I had to go back for two more years . The reason is , I still haven't gotten over the fact that I am an outcast . I cut and cut until I was sent back into "Beck's international teen rehab center ." It was the type if place that made you feel as if you were a total freak . I hated it . Once I got out , I kind of regretted that I cut myself once again . Once I left , nobody talked to me for months . I felt as if I didn't belong in the world . Well , on October 13, 2014 I attempted to hang myself in my brother's closet . I wrote a note to my family , they probably never read it .. Well , the thing is , I slowly knew this was it and I couldn't turn back now . I could feel the rasp of the belt bruising into my skin. It hurt so bad , I remember I tried so hard to breath and I realized I couldn't . I suddenly felt a rush of regret . I tried so hard to be better for society . Why did it have to end like this ? To all of the teens out there .. I'm going to tell you that suicide is NEVER the answer . You have to stop listening to society , no matter how hard things get . You also have to pass the awareness on , so then teens like you will be better role models and make the world a better place . I love you all ! There's a wonderful life in front of you , use it wisely ~_~