My Letters To Him

On October 21, 2018 - "Mine"

I never thought it would pass. The torture that is him liking my best friend. But somehow it did. He somehow moved on despite how hard it is. I almost don't believe it, but my heart wants to be ignorant.

"Maria!" James calls.

And there's the man - err... boy - that probably caused the end to this torture. Dorothy's boyfriend... yup.

A mixture of sadness, excitement, disappointment, and joy had come at me all at once when Dorothy told me that she's starting to like James. Mostly because she just broke up with Tiara... and yes, they dated. For a few weeks.

Dorothy said she wanted to give it a try, but we all knew they were both just using each other as rebounds. I'm not sure how Tiara is feeling about it, but she did break up with Dorothy because she noticed that Dorothy's hanging out with James and Iñigo much more. She got jealous I guess.

Now though, they're alright and things are settled. What we're currently doing though, is guessing Iñigo's new crush.

"Me?!" I exclaim, shocked. Although deep inside I'm wishing so hard that he would have feelings for me. Even if it's not a full blown crush, I would be satisfied with him just liking me as more than a friend.

"Nope," Iñigo replied calmly, but his expression showed how amused he was at how hard we were trying to find out the new person he likes.

"Oh, thank the heavens," I pretend to be relieved as I leaned against the wall behind me.

We don't have everyone right now, but me, Iñigo, James, Alison, William, and Timothy are all gathered up at our usual spot. We're all already dismissed and we're just passing time until our fetchers finally arrive.

"I honestly think that it's either me again, or you're just pretending to have moved on from Dorothy," Alison says with pure honesty.

"I wholeheartedly agree on that," I reply with a little more formal tone, just to mask the jealousy in my voice.

Alison... she's so pretty and confident. I admire her so much and I'm so happy she considers me a friend. Although she's really friendly, I felt intimidated by her when we first met. Her resting face just made me feel like I shouldn't approach her, and that I shouldn't get on her bad side. Turns out, I only got the latter correct.

I admire Alison for her personality and her looks, but I also dislike her because of it. It's the bittersweet feeling of being close friends with a pretty and popular girl, but also being such a plain and boring girl that you can't believe she's so close with you. A lot of guys like her, but because of that, I often compare myself to her.

I also can't deny that part of my jealousy is because of the fact that Iñigo used to like her.

"Oof, no," Iñigo says, his face scrunching up.

"Then who?" William asked.

"Timothyyy who is it?" I turn to Timothy for answers.

Timothy shrugs. "Not even I know."

Iñigo just hums happily as they continue to guess, and I just stare at him, wondering who he could like. But at the same time, I know I might not be able to handle it.

I just sit there, wishing and wondering. I try to not make it look like I'm sad, as I just hope.

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"Mine"

There you go again, liking another girl
And here I am again, moping yet saying I'm fine
You always treat them like a precious pearl
While here I am, hoping one day I'll be able to call you mine

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OK SO I MANAGE TO PUBLISH THIS ON TIME. BARELY. But hey, at least I did. I don't have much to say, but like always, I hope you enjoyed this chapter! If you liked it, make sure to spread it to your friends!

Anyways, thank you for reading!

Yours truly,
Lillian Cerulibeth