True Love

Part 8 : God I love her

Cheryl's POV

I was in my bed and I can't stop crying. All the time when I close my eyes I see Toni kissing Veronica. God if I was just a little bit courageous and if I was able to say, " I am lesbian and I am in love with Toni Topaz" maybe Toni will be with me today but it's to late now. If my parents knew that I am gay like Jason was ... I am so scared of their potential reaction. I miss Toni so much, but she deserves to be happy, more than anyone else and Veronica is a good person, better than me she's not traumatised of what people can think she Don't cares and that's why she's perfect for a wonderful girl like Toni. 

" Cheryl ? are you here ?" a familiar voice asked, I can recognize this voice between 1000 other it's was Toni's voice.

" Toni ? why are you here ? Where is Veronica ?" I asked confused. 

" We breaked up. Look Cheryl I know everything now, about the death of your brother because he was gay and the fact that your parents are more homophobic than anyone else."

" Well Veronica told you everything. So what? You want to scoff me, the poor girl who lost her twin brother, the poor girl who decided to never love anyone and especially a girl because of her parents, the... "

" Can you shut up for once" she stopped me," I Don't want to scoff you I want to apologize."

" Apologize? Really ? About what ? "

" Cheryl I didn't tell you it at Camp but I fell in love with you, you were beautiful, sweet, kind and so funny. When I saw you at Riverdale High I hoped to be with you because I was still in love with you, but ... " she paused and looked at me, " you pushed me away and you dated someone else, you broken my heart, I thought that you used me as an experience and I wanted to let feel you the same so I dated the person who you were the most closed but now I understand why you pushed me away you are so scared and if you Don't feel the same for me and if you love Reggie I have to accept it, I am sorry cheryl" she started to leave my bedroom but I stopped her. 

" You were not an experience Toni Topaz, I fell in love with you too. Yes, you're right I am so scared about what people thinks and more especially what my parents will do if they learned that I..." I looked at her I was to scared to say it but I saw in her eyes that she needs to know what I feel for her, "that I love you Toni, I dated Reggie to push you away  and when you dated Veronica I felt like I was dead Inside, I am so sorry Toni for all things I said to you, I never trust what I said , I make this image of loveless person and monster to not feel the pain to lose someone I love, but I can't control myself with you Toni, I know that I love you but I am not ready to tell to the entire world that I am lesbian, I hope you can understand it"I admited, and I was so liberated. 

Toni's POV

Wow  I recovered my Cheryl, the girl I fell in love with so I took her hand and say, " God Cheryl of course I understand and you are not obligated to came out, it's a personal choice. I love you too and I Don't want to press you". Before I could say anything she kissed me passionately, I dreamed of her lips for months it was so wonderful to have her lips on mine again, " Cheryl I thought you wanted to wait"

" I think I am waiting for a so long time now, Look I am not ready to came out but if you are ok to be my girlfriend I promess that you will not regret it Toni and I promess that I never be mean with you again" I looked at her and I kissed her. 

" Cheryl, I love you and I will be so honour to call you my girlfriend even if it must stay a secret for the moment."

" I love you Toni !"

"I love you too"