My mafia man

Chapter 7

When I came out of the bathroom I noticed James in the kitchen; I walked into my bedroom and grabbed my phone wanting to know the time, it's only 4:30 a.m., I got another few hours to kill before starting my shift in café; I noticed James clothes in the corner and chucked them in the washing machine then walked to the kitchen; I see James standing only in his boxer and i commented "nice outfit" he immediately checked himself and chuckled; he then held a plate and came behind me placing one of his hand around my waist and another handing me a plate of pancakes; he rested his chin on my shoulder and whispered "no egg"; I turned around to meet his eye and he fixed his eye on mine; he kissed my forehead and whispered "I love you" then he kissed my each eye and repeated another I love you; I widened my eyes with a surprise, how can he say it so confidently as if he is talking about some types of sports; "what?" he asked and continued with his kissing, he kissed everywhere on my face letting out another I love you after every kiss until only my lips were left; he cupped my face and looked into my eyes as if he was asking for permission, I confidently placed my hands on his lips trying to block away his kiss and asked "what did you just said?" James looked at me confused "what?", I crossed my hands on my chest and asked again "what did you just said while kissing me?" James smiled and pulled me closer to him, "I Love you" he said it so confidently as I looked at him asking myself if is he being genuine with his feelings, I pulled myself away from his arms and whispered "James, you can't love me this quickly" James grabbed my wrist and looked deep into my eyes and asked "why?" I took few steps closer to him and grabbed his face with one hand that was left and whispered "I think you are confusing yourself between love and pity, the feelings you have for me is not love but sympathy, that sympathy you feel when you see a stray animals laying in the street during cold winter, or that sympathy you feel when you see a child walking alone in street during dark rainy night, you can't possibly love me James" as I finished talking I could feel warm streak of tears rolling down my cheeks, James pulled me into his arms and asked "do you go crazy when that stray animals refused to come to you? does it hurt that much that all you could do is to drink and even after you drink it doesn't get off from your mind? Tell me Rose, when you fall in love and that person refused to be part of your life, when that person is so scared of your life, tell me does that feeling match with the feeling of being rejected by stray animals or that child who is walking in the street in dark rainy night? Tell me Rose, enlighten me and with it tell me that you don't feel the same that I feel for you" hearing it my eyes became more watery and I broke down; I broke down in his arms; no one has ever told me that they loved me before, forget about the love I haven't even felt this comfort all my life and all of a sudden this man came out of nowhere and confess his love for me; I don't know what anyone is meant to do at this situation; "I love you Rose, I really do and no matter how much you try to runaway from this feeling you have for me you will never succeed because deep down I know you love me or else you wouldn't have brought me home yesterday, you wouldn't have let me kiss you this morning" I pulled myself away from him and stared right into his eyes, I could see some pain in his eyes, he is rubbing my back trying to comfort me and with tearful eyes I whispered "I think I am falling in love with you too" and this confession immediately light up his face; i moved my lips more closer to him and pressed on his; this time I decided to take charge and sucked his upper lips and I get his moan in return then again I slowly moved my lips to his lower lip and playfully bite it which made him moan more; in the back of my head I imagine Kyle kissing me instead of James and I decided to control my mind calming my self it's James; I gently pulled away his hand from my face and guided it underneath my top and placed it over my breast; My mind brought back Kyle reflection again and I flinched automatically which made James stopped ; he pulled himself away from my kiss and look at me; "sorry" he mumbled and tried to pull away his hand "No" I whispered and grabbed his hand placing it back on my breast; "I want you to touch me and erase all the painful touch I have ever received"; James looked at me for few second and lifted me up and placed me on the kitchen counter; he continued to fix his gaze at me so I rested my chin on his shoulder and whispered "next time when I am deep in my sleep I want it to be you touching me" and then I cupped his face and looked him in his eye "because you make me safe and I want to feel safe even in my dream"; James hesitated for a second then gently cupped my face with his one hand while the other gently cupped my breast; he brought his face more closer to me and kissed me as gently as he can; "I love you" I whispered and took off my top leaving myself in my bra and pyjama pant; James looked at me then to my breast and whispered "you are so beautiful" he gently kissed my neck then to my shoulder whilst unhooking my bra; he then gently pulled it away; next I found his tongue licking my nipples, he flicked it whilst his other hand pinched my other nipple; he brought his lips back to mine and slipped his tongue inside of mine; James lifted me up from the kitchen counter and walked inside of the bedroom as he held me with my legs around his waist kissing me more passionately; "you sure?" he asked and laid me down on my bed "more than anything" I whispered; James laid on top of me and moved away all the hair from my face as I kept my eyes open to remind myself it's James; he pressed his lips on mine then slowly moved to my neck then to my shoulder and sucked my each nipple before trailing his tongue to my navel; the lower he went the warmer I felt; my heart started to beat more louder as I find my face heating up; James got up and kissed my each toe and moved forward, he noticed the cigarette burn mark which I got when I bumped into him; "what's this?" he ask, "cigarette burn marks from the time we bumped" I replied; he gently kissed it and mumbled "I am such a dick" he then placed another kiss in my each thigh until he reached in between my inner thigh; he slowly licked it and sucked my clit which suddenly made me shudder; he gently kissed it again and began to suck it again; he repeated the process of licking, sucking and kissing until I lost myself; I pulled his hair as I moaned his name; "yes baby, let it go" he whispered and the vibration from his voice made me sent out a warm liquid as he continued to suck it; James grinned seeing me in this state, feeling proud of himself "ready baby?" he asked so I nodded in response; James slowly entered inside of me and buried his face in my neck "I am going to move now baby, let me know if it hurt" he whispered and began to move slowly; I feel a sting but I ignored it as he pressed his lips on mine and explored my mouth; slowly he began to move faster and faster as I hear him moan my name "baby you are so tight" he whispered nibbling my ears "this is what you do to me baby" he mumbled again kissing my neck "you make me loose control" he moaned, "you are mine, only mine" he said in his deep husky voice; "Rose I cant hold it anymore and I want you to come with me now" he ordered; he only had to say it once and my body reacted straight away and came holding his body tightly as I continue to shake and he quickly pulled it out shooting his warmness in my stomach; "you okay?" he asked as he tried to control his breath and calm his body "more than ok" I responded then he fall on me whispering "I love you with all my heart" and kissed my forehead just then my alarm beeped signaling me to get up.